Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Blast Furnace Special Edition: The Writers & Writing of Words Without Walls

Beginning in 2012, Blast Furnace will feature multi-genre writing in an annual special edition of the journal. For its first special edition, Blast Furnace is pleased to present fiction, nonfiction and poetry written by Words Without Walls (WWW) students.

A creative collaboration between Chatham University’s Master of Fine Arts (MFA) in Creative Writing program and the city’s Allegheny County Jail (ACJ) that began in 2010, WWW fosters and supports creative expression and personal growth by providing men and women at the jail with exposure to literature and visiting authors—such as Mary Karr, Toi Derricotte and Terrance Hayes, among others—as well as the opportunity for the students to publish their work. WWW grew from a residency program started by artist Sandra Gould-Ford. Because of the program’s reach, Chatham University committed to continuing its creative writing classes at ACJ in June 2010. WWW's innovative approach to learning and teaching has resulted in support from the A.W. Mellon Education and Charitable Trust Fund of The Pittsburgh Foundation, and the Advancing Black Arts in Pittsburgh Fund, a partnership of The Heinz Endowments and The Pittsburgh Foundation.

This past summer, Blast Furnace interviewed one of the WWW writing workshop leaders, Sarah Shotland; a playwright with a theater background who was also enrolled in Chatham's MFA program. In years past, Sarah worked in Austin, Texas at a charter school for adults who hadn’t completed high school, or who’d been in recovery and were returning to school.

The nine-week, multi-genre (fiction, creative nonfiction and poetry) WWW program at ACJ consists of classes instructed and moderated by teachers and volunteers, like Sarah, where students review literary excerpts by such writers as Jimmy Santiago Baca (who learned how to read in prison), John Edgar Wideman, Adrienne Rich, Lucille Clifton, Etheridge Knight, and others who Sarah describes as “a range of genres and voices.” Every Thursday afternoon during those nine weeks, the female students meet for class, while every Friday, it’s the male students. Currently, the program has a waiting list of 100 people. Volunteers in the program must first be cleared to participate. Clearance involves a background check, including a review of criminal history over ten years, security training at the jail where they are taught the rules, and adherence to a strict dress code.

Classes are rooted in theme rather than writing craft; for example, “The Black Mirror” focuses on reflection in writing. Some of the prompts to spur ideas: Write about a scar on your body. Start a piece with “No one ever asks me…” What the students often discover, Sarah says, is that their own experiences are mirrored back, and they see what they have in common with one another.

WWW students are provided a journal and pencil. Outside of class, they are asked to write every day, discuss an element of writing, read a literature piece that relates to that element, and are given one hour to take something from their journals and transfer it to computer. Additionally, students are permitted to submit to a literary journal, and to Pen American—the oldest literature foundation in the Country with a prison writing contest that reviews poetry, scriptwriting, and fiction. One class in each nine-week session is dedicated to publishing and having the students write a query letter to a publisher, and one class is dedicated to performance, or presentation of student work by the students. The course’s submission focus has even resulted in Pen American awarding a second place prize in its annual competition for “Sabrina,” a story written by WWW student Lynne Agnew.

As another means to gain exposure for its students, WWW has published the winner of the Sandra Gould-Ford Prize in chapbook-length format. Students are nominated for the Gould-Ford Prize—an annual honor given to one student who shows an outstanding passion for and commitment to writing—by WWW instructors. In 2011, WWW also published Look Here: an anthology of writing from Words Without Walls (featuring 14 pieces of poetry, nonfiction by various students), and the chapbook Flying Squirrel & Other Stories, by Lynne Agnew, winner of the Gould-Ford Prize. Recently, it was decided that WWW will publish an anthology that includes a special insert section for the 2012 Gould-Ford Prize winner, slated for release this Spring.

In addition to the nine-week course session and publishing efforts, WWW extends invitations to “Voice Catch”—weekend workshops that occur from 10 AM to Noon, on the second and fourth Saturday of each month. The Voice Catch workshops are headed by a network of instructors and moderators who lead discussion and provide participating attendees with a prompt in each workshop session.

Student feedback tells a story of how WWW is making a difference. Some of the comments Sarah and others involved with the program have heard:

“I look forward to this all week.”

“This is the only time this week I got to be myself.”

“I never felt smart before this.”

“[WWW] gave me a pencil and gave me a life.”

Editor'sNote: Chatham University’s MFA in Creative Writing is presenting the WWW Black Writers Reading Series. Funding for the project is provided by the Advancing Black Arts in Pittsburgh Fund of The Pittsburgh Foundation. The grant supports the visits of five black writers to Pittsburgh throughout the next several months. Each writer will present his/her work at the ACJ to students studying creative writing through the WWW initiative. The writers will also present their work to the public.

The first writer in the series was Faith Adiele, who presented her work at the University in November. The next public reading is Tyehimba Jess, author of leadbelly, a 2004 National poetry Series winner, at Chatham on February 24 at 8 PM.

Additionally, WWW was recently chosen as the beneficiary of Party for a Purpose Pittsburgh's next fundraising event. The party will be held at brillobox on March 23, from 9 PM to 2AM, and will include a poetry slam featuring Tim Siebles, WWW visiting writer, and faculty and students from the University of Pittsburgh and Chatham. Admission is $10 at the door. All proceeds benefit Words Without Walls.
 
WWW accepts monetary donations. For more details about the program, visit http://www.wordswithoutwalls.com/, or send your questions and feedback to info@wordswithoutwalls.com



Hotdogs & Beans

I remember when I was seven or eight years old, when I went to Crescent Elementary School and at lunch time we had hotdogs and beans. I decided to be the class clown, to put the hotdog in my pants between my zipper and walk back to class with it all hanging out. The students got a laugh out of it, but my teacher didn’t. The school sent me home for three days; suspended me. I remember a leather belt hanging from my bedroom door knob. I was so nervous. I knew what was next: the biggest ass whooping of the century! But by the time my dad came in the room and took the belt off the door, I passed out. I remember waking up to bright lights, to my mother and father standing over me. I had a seizure. Lying there, I remember my father whispering in my ear: “as soon as you get home, that ass is mine.” I remember he forgot this.

William Upshaw

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Country Blues

I’m crying inside stuck behind the hands of time, feeling like I’m dying inside knowing that the man’s going to demand my time. Momma told me there’d be days like this but who’d have thought I’d be stuck in country reds doing a bid like this once again. Here I am, a top bunk victim, another probate detainee caught up in this system. The world outside keeps on spinnin’ while we’re stuck in a void caught up in this whirlwind. I got a soup for that chicken I’m tired of going to bed hungry, sittin’ up all night tossin’ and turnin’ cause my stomach’s grumbling and my heart is lonely. Breakfast comes too early and dinner isn’t enough to sate the hunger in lil’ children. I’m missin’ meals to make a meal and if the offer is right I’m a take the deal. I’m not talkin’ bout coppin’ pleas. I gotta nice size cake for that bread and beans. How ‘bout the next two desserts for them potatoes? Today sir I got no money on my books, no pick or comb to neaten up my looks.

So now I’m walkin’ around with my face and hair nappy, wearin’ my feelings on my sleeves, lookin’ for a reason to smile or be happy. Then I look at these lame niggas surroudnin’ me. Claustrophobic now cuz it feels like these four walls is closing in around me. I got to stay focused. Keep my mind right ‘cause if I lose sight of the light then the situation’s hopeless. I’m tired of hurtin’, tired of feelin’ these pent up emotions, tired of feelin’ like a bitch going through the motions, tired of seein’ the same faces and red shifts, tired of seeing niggas happy and comfy like they sittin’ at home. Fucked up thing is some them feel like this is where they belong, this is where they fit in, and the streets is where they put their bid in. That just goes to show how fucked up their head is. The sad thing is, I’m no different.

William Arrington, nominee, 2011 Sandra Gould-Ford Prize

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Shellac on a Hand

High five my fleshy hand. Hit me up for all the work I’ve put in. Give me props. Don’t I deserve some fuckin’ respect? Not according to society and the police. Hell no! “I’m a danger to myself and others.” Lock me up, cage me in, let me wither away. Smack me down. Hit me hard in the face. Just when I think I got it right, the wheels of justice come my way and pull the E brake before I crash and burn. I’m scarred. A hole is etched in my soul. I’m hardened and calloused. I’ve changed. Who Am I? Wouldn’t you like to know?

Nikki Clelland

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Who am I?

He is I and I am power.
You see me on the corner
or filling up your local jails, but
I still remain royalty from a cell.

I am the child of Abraham and David
made in the image of the Creator.
I am he who split the sea and saved
the people from danger.

I invented the stoplight, blueprinted
the pyramids. I fought for civil rights.

I have been crucified, hanged
by a noose and still survived.
I am Earth, Wind and Fire combined.

Long ago I mastered science,
constructed mathematics but now
my homelands are famished
and most of my brothers are addicts.

Do you know who I am?
The lost King of Judah,
the producer of Tuskegee
airmen and paratroopers.
I am who I am but to them
I am a Blackman.

Tyrone Leach

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That was the Day I Followed the Kings Rules*

There was a day once when pigs flew through the snowy skies of a frozen hell. On this day there was liberty & justice for all. I got reparations that day and the words that proceeded from the kings mouth were true and not lies. That was the same day that I walked across the sun barefoot until I found shade, sat down and enjoyed an ice cold glass of lemonade. I did many things that day. I hiked the floors of the oceans and cooked fish over underwater campfires followed by endless Newports until bedtime. I had snowball fights in the Sahara and man, that day, accepted that he was indeed not God. Mass human warehousing & slavery ended that day. I stared at a girl on television and got her pregnant. Airplanes flew the sewers and tunnels and casinos had all lost money that day. I had even seen a griffin do battle with a sphinx while a Pegasus courted a unicorn. With all that happening, I nearly missed the cow jumping over the moon. It was also a very good day for a friend of mine-Humpty Dumpty. The king’s horses & men finally put him back together again. Turns out they could’ve done it all along. They could’ve also released the cure for the bio-engineered H.I.Virus which the king ordered done that day. The quiet war -fought with the silent weapons- that the government had waged on its own blindly loyal citizens ceased this day. O, it was a day for the history books. The clock struck 13…not the military clock either. That clock struck 2500 hrs on that 367th day of the year. Money doesn’t grow on trees… Says who? I planted money trees this day. They grew & bore bills almost instantly. Sowing pennies brought forth a harvest of 1 dollar-bill trees, nickels-5 dollars, dimes-$10, quarters-$20, 50 cent pieces got you $50 trees and of course, silver dollars got you 100 dollar bill trees. That day the king’s tyrannical heart was given over to compassion and righteousness. He became the servant that a king is meant to be. A leader, who no longer preyed on his own subjects, but loved them and gave himself for them. The day the sun rose in the west and the earth orbited the moon…when pigs flew through the frosty skies of a hell frozen over…That was the day I followed the king’s rules.

* First line taken from the poem “That Day” by Anne Sexton

Joe Garfield, winner, 2012 Sandra Gould-Ford Prize

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Numbers

12 and 8…Do those numbers mean anything to you?

They do to me…12 is the age of my beautiful daughter

And 8 is the age of my gorgeous son.

What about the numbers 11-2-09?…Those numbers are a date for me…it’s the last time I seen my beautiful children.

How about the number 65…That is the number of days I was a patient in Torrance State Hospital.

What about 174…that is the number of days I’ve been in ACJ.

239 is the sum total of being away from not just my children, but all my family and friends.

1000 is the number of pieces my hearts been torn into.

The numbers 8-9-10 is another date…this is my scheduled court date.

48…that number is my favorite number…no clue why...It just is.

Did you know that 7 is God’s perfect number

And 6 is man’s perfect number.

27 is the first cell I was in on 5MD.

219 is my current cell number on 4E.

2 are the number of sisters I have and 5 is the total number of nieces and nephew I’ve been blessed with.

12:21…. I’ll bet you don’t know what those numbers mean to me; those numbers are from the book of Romans, which happens to be my favorite scripture in the Bible. Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.

These numbers might not mean much to you, but these numbers help remind me of the life I’ve lived, mostly this past year. I’m sure they’ll be more numbers to come of importance to me, but for now I can look back at these numbers and realize that the ones that relate to the ACJ, are the ones I want to avoid in my future.

The very last number I will add is the number 1…and that is the number I am fighting for now…which is myself. I’ve come to realize that I’ll never get better unless I look out for myself first and foremost.

Terra Lynn, first runner-up, 2012 Sarah Gould-Ford Prize


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I SAW A MAN DESTROYED BY HIS EVIL WAYS
THINKIN BAD WAS GOOD, GOOD WAS BAD GIVIN EVIL PRAISE
THIS MAN WAS LOST, HE WAS LED ASTRAY
DESPITE ALL THE THINGS HE LACKS, ALL HE NEEDS TO DO IS PRAY
IN NEED OF GUIDANCE, WHO WILL SHOW HIM DIRECTION
IN NEED OF LOVE, WHO WILL SHOW HIM AFFECTION
ALL HE KNEW WAS WRONG, HE KNEW NO RIGHT
ALL HE KNEW WAS DEATH, HE KNEW NO LIFE
WAS IT HIS ENVIORNMENT WHO’S TO BLAME
WHAT CAUSED THE FIRE WHO SPARKED THE FLAME
SO MUCH HURT, SO MUCH PAIN
FEELIN LIKE A PRISIONER WHO FINALLY BROKE THE CHAINS
A BROKEN SPIRIT, THE STRAW THAT BROKE THE CAMEL’S BACK
HAD TO PUSH THE LIMIT, PUSH IT TO THE MAX
I HAD TO BREAK THE CYCLE TO TRY TO BREAK FREE
BUT IN THE PROCESS, WILL THIS FINALLY BREAK ME
WITH MY FACE TO THE GROUND AND MY PRAYERS TO THE SKY
LETTIN GO OF THE PAST TO PREPARE FOR WHEN I DIE
WHERE AM I HEADED, IS IT HEAVEN OR HELL
TRYIN TO BUY BACK THE SOUL THAT I OFFERED TO SELL

James Reeses

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Daddy

I hear you and Mom screaming,
So I hide.
Thinking it will never end.
When it stops I hear your footsteps coming up the stairs,
Coming toward my room.
So I slow my breathing down,
Thinking you won’t see me in my bed,
But you do.
Start to pull me by my hair down the hall and stairs.
I cry.
And all you do is hit me.
Fuck me.
Say, Shut the fuck up, bitch, the neighbors will hear you.
So I bite down on my lip.
I taste the metallic.
So afraid when you’re done I don’t move.
You walked away from the mess you did to me,
All bloody, my naked body lying on the floor.
Never again, I say to myself.
But you know that’s not true,
Right, Dad?

Samantha Woods, 3rd place, 2012 Sandra Gould-Ford Prize

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Good morning ladies and gentlemen,

My name is August “Gus” DiRenna and I’m at your service. As odd as that might sound, those are the exact words I’ve been dreaming of saying from behind a podium in front of a group of people who generally care and are actually paying attention to what I might say. This means, in the reality of this moment, for all intents and purposes, you people have all inadvertently witnessed and more importantly participated in a dream come true. With that magic still in the air I would also like to present a miracle in the making. That miracle is the fact that I can stand here before you today and honestly say that I am mentally clear, alert, and sober, physically I am healthy, fit and able. Spiritually I am happy, hopeful, and eager to participate in any and all positive activities to benefit the community. Needless to say, this has not always been the case.

My story is called “Intersecting Prayers” and I would like to share it with you now.

Intersecting Prayers

On March 16, 2010, my mother’s birthday, I’m lying unconscious in the front seat of the treatment center’s van. The rear door slams, jarring me enough to start fumbling around for the match to relight the stubborn cigarette that keeps going out during my drug nod. Just before I slip back under, the sadistic van driver slams his door and throws a “just banged the neighbor’s cat” type grin at me, asking the most absurd question any fat little black man with white-girl glasses has ever asked, “Are you okay?”

Being in a fairly good mood, I simply say, “Drive the van, fat man.” And in his sarcastic, condescending voice I would come to hate on my four- hour trip to treatment, once again this fat little sadistic jagoff asks if I will be ok. I want to tell him I am on my way to remove a crutch and execute an imaginary friend that has supported me for the last 40 years. My drug use. Only I know that he knows already, and could give a shit less. So I utter the three most unbelievable words of prophecy that any Old Testament prophet or back alley fortune teller would ever speak. I say, “I’ll be fine.”

As I look out the window along my semi-conscious trip across the wonderful state of Pennsylvania on that beautiful spring day, my suitcases of hopelessness, sorrow and despair begin to unpack themselves. At a gas station outside of Johnstown, I leave a photo album of all the pictures of myself—sad, hopeless, life-losing eyes—glaring back from the mirror that I only on occasion had the nerve to look into. Somewhere near Penn State, I threw trunks of my broken dreams and schemes into a dumpster, no one knows where. I watch as the roof rack of good intentions litters the road in the opposite direction behind me.

When I finally arrive at the treatment center, this city-slicker is a witness framed in the windshield of the beat up old treatment van. The landscape is like an exotic picture from a National Geographic magazine. I step right into it. Overwhelmed by strange sounds, smells, and odd creature’s movements, I swear there must be a Hollywood director maybe in a tree with a megaphone telling his assistant to “cue the damn deer.” That’s right, there he is, a buck, and he wants to have a staring contest with me. I’m not in the mood, so I ask the deer, “What the fuck are you looking at?” And somehow, he makes it clear, through a nod, that I am the dumbest son of a human in all of creation to be a drug addict on such a beautiful day, in such a beautiful place. I pump-fake a threat, stamping my foot, and off he goes, leaving me alone with my only bag left: a too-heavy-to carry khaki duffle bag, full of my fears of fast-approaching drug sickness and packed with anxieties of a life without them.

At the center, I do what I think we all do, except I don’t have a priest, witch doctor, rabbi, or even a voodoo luck charm. So I cross my fingers and begin to pray to a God I don’t understand. I ask for my sickness to be tolerable and to gain hope for the future. Nothing seems to happen. Across the state, on her birthday, a mother prays the same prayer for her son, to a God she knows well. I stand up, turn around, and suddenly, the world is different.

I open my eyes and see the man who, just minutes before, asking me for a cigarette, I had pegged as the second place finisher in the “Condescending, Self-Serving Asshole Contest.” Now, only a moment later, I can see all the guilt he was feeling at having left his mom and grandmother, with nothing but their grief at the curb this morning. Near the intake office, there is a girl going off with endless chatter trying to avoid her misery. On the spot, I have a whole new perspective and respect for a different pain that only a woman can cause for herself or endure. Everyone and everything suddenly appears different.

I awake the next morning I feeling better than I can ever remember. It surely cannot be. I should be so drug sick that I would need the care of the doctor. When I tell him that I feel great, and he writes it off, saying some bologna about how I must have hypnotically self-talked or how I am under the placebo effect. After two hours of defending my new belief in God, with patients and the doctor, I get fed up, and blurt out, “Doc! Look here you little pill pedaling, poppy pushing, short-order cook. Hold the mumbo-jumbo and put the placebo on the side. I believe in God.”

AugustGus DiRenna

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President Barker and Mrs. Bakerhorn

Today Jon and Rudy Sue find themselves thinking mutually exclusive thoughts as they go about their business in respective realms at The Rudy Sue Restaurant. She envisions an adding machine constantly scrolling through paper, glowing eight-figure profits. Jon, in contrast, sees himself in a beat up recliner wearing a wife-beater shirt with his legs crossed at the ankles and his head resting in the palm of his hands. A smoldering Premium King cigarette bounces from a smile on his lips.

Rudy Sue usually multitasks at The Rudy Sue Restaurant in her venture to get rich quick and retire to Nashville. But for now, she’s transfixed by the glow of the portable television perched above the back burner of the stove. The television plays “The Price is Right” reruns, her favorite game show. Today’s contestants have been particularly unsuccessful, fueling Rudy Sue’s belief in her own savvy shopping superiority.

“Damn advertisements! I wanna see what price the contestant will guess for the Maytag washer,” she yells out to the empty tables. Rudy Sue hails Bob Barker as a financier exemplar, a composite of what all successful American businessmen should be.

“Bob Barker should run for the president of America. I betcha he drives a new custom Continental,” she mumbles within earshot of Jon. Rudy Sue feels she exemplifies the contemporary, cosmopolitan and academically erudite woman. She’s completed one-and-three quarters semesters at the Smithtowne Beauty Academy. For what she lacks in fashion accessorization, she compensates with her overinflated self-image as a woman of impeccable social standing and superior intellectual caste.

She prides herself on the many culinary skills she possesses as an epicurean in the league with the chefs par excellence she studies meticulously when watching the Home Shopping Network and QVC, dressed in their starch stiff regalia, displaying the most recent inventions in kitchenware and culinary craft. For high holidays and when her son visits, Rudy Sue prepares and displays for public and personal awe, such provincial recipes as hard tack candy and peanut butter chocolate cake.

Profit fuels Rudy Sue’s every interaction with the public. After all, she rationalizes; there are bills and taxes to be paid, self and home improvements to be addressed, the new Lincoln Continental to be purchased annually.

Jon’s lack of professional prowess reverberates as a stabbing reminder of the profound loss Rudy Sue suffers as a result of not having been selected homecoming queen some thirty-five years ago. Rudy Sue is convinced that had the elections not been rigged, she would have been pursued by oil tycoons and other wealthy suitors, a fact she reminds her husband of every chance she gets.

In her blitzkrieg against Jon’s abominable nicotine habit, Rudy Sue calculates that by forcing him to abstain from smoking, she could generate sizable revenue. The smoking cessation campaign continues, so she’ll have to make do with the dividends from The Rudy Sue Restaurant. She’ll have to postpone her plans to purchase the now defunct jewelry store next door for her business expansion goals.

Jon hunts wild game in the back yard and sells funeral insurance and real estate for the afterlife. Along with the sales of grave plots, Jon is also available as minister for funeral services. He received his calling as a preacher in a night vision, and with the aid of a computer correspondence class in ministry. His business skills were honed as a natural progression of selling salvation at traveling circus pre-shows and from a booth at the county fair.

But today, as Jon reclines in a seat at The Rudy Sue Restaurant, he feels called to close a lucrative deal with one Mrs. Bakerhorn, a ninety-six year old widow shut-in. The business of death, as it turns out, is a booming industry; Jon’s been panning for gold in its stream for the last twenty years. He feels his calling comes from a power higher than Rudy Sue’s god of gastronomy.

Before entering Mrs. Bakerhorn’s residence, Jon poses his hands in a prayer position, index fingers resting against his forehead and calculates the gross-domestic-product-sized commission he’ll make as a result of today’s potential combination sale. He’s hoping to land the Deluxe Funeral Package and a contract for his exclusive services for all funeral-related activities.

He knocks on the door of Mrs. Bakerhorn’s corrugated aluminum trailer. For an interminably long period he waits. He looks around at the carnival of plastic lawn ornaments in her postage stamp sized lawn. The zoo includes deer, rabbits, pink flamingoes, squirrels, kittens and a rooster. “Isn’t there some zoning ordinance or anti-defamation law that prohibits this?” he asks rhetorically to himself.

An ancient and disheveled wreath hangs from the door of the trailer, composed of plastic, neon, yellow squirrels, pink glitter acorns and hay. A red checkered ribbon laces around the wreath. On its bottom hangs a wooden sign that reads: “Come in! We’re all nuts in here.”

Jon hears a clanking emanate from the other side of the trailer door. “Get the hell outta here,” yells a cantankerous Mrs. Bakerhorn from inside.

“It’s me, Mrs. Bakerhorn. Jon. Jon Ablower. I’ve come to visit for awhile.” His snarky grin steals the attention of his client, peeping out the door, hard of hearing and in the last stages of early onset dementia. Mrs. Bakerhorn opens the doors.

“Mrs. Bakerhorn, do you have a VCR?” Jon takes her arm and guides Mrs. Bakerhorn to a corduroy covered chair by the television. She props her can by the afghan that straddles the armrest. She reserves its utility not so much as an aid for walking, but to defend herself against home invaders, neighborhood hoodlums, and shysters shelling bibles door to door.

“How about I leave some attractive pamphlets concerning our line of caskets for your future viewing pleasure after I leave,” Jon says, knowing she could start a forest fire with the glasses she wears.

After accepting the compliments of lukewarm tea and saltine crackers, Jon feels the situation warrants the more aggressive, tactical implementation of his snap-on clerical collar that arrived in the mail with his certificate of completion for a correspondence degree in seminary science.

Confident that this will add a flare of sanctity to his sales pitch, Jon excuses himself to the restroom for a costume change. When he returns, he pulls the blinds up. Light beams like bleach from the window behind him and blinds Mrs. Bakerhorn. She mistakes him for the archangel, Gabriel. She’s in heaven now. She’ll buy anything Jon has to sell.

Jon speaks with confidence in his transformation. The collar invests him with supernatural grace and integrity, with all the smooth and artificial suggestion of industrial grade Plexiglas.

“Mrs. Bakerhorn,” (Jon begins all his sentences with the elderly client’s name, having learned at the senior citizens’ center that this technique grabs geriatric focus for just long enough to register name and nothing else) “May I interest you in some television entertainment?”

Jon pops in the VHS cassette depicting attractive grave plot decorations. He hands Mrs. Bakerhorn a corresponding catalogue with 3-D foldouts of funeral accessories, coincidently sold behind the counter of the Rudy Sue Restaurant at a six hundred percent markup.

“Mrs. Bakerhorn,” he narrates, “Your gravesite is like making your final fashion statement. You really want to pay extra attention to how you accessorize! Think of your gravesite decorations as your purse and your belt and your shoes.”

“Oh my,” Mrs. Bakerhorn giggles girlishly. “I’ll be sure to wear my teeth, if that’s what you mean.” The elderly woman looks up at him, blushing.

“Mrs. Bakerhorn,” Jon stands sanctimoniously as if he were saluting the flag. “For a woman of such impeccable taste in fashion and of such breathtaking beauty, I’d settle for nothing less than the Deluxe Standard Funeral Package on page six.”

“Well,” she blushes once again. “I don’t know that I’m beautiful, but Charlie and I used to really cut some rug. Say, did you bring Charlie with you today?”

“Mrs. Bakerhorn,” Jon kneels to pat her on the hand, “No, I didn’t bring Charlie with me. Remember, Charlie passed away ten years ago.”

“No, he didn’t,” she snaps. “He went to the grocery story,” she argues.

“Mrs. Bakerhorn,” he says as he stares deep into her eyes to command what focus he can. “There’s no reason your final resting place should be anything less than regal and befitting or your graciousness. Beautiful like you are.” His somber sales pitch has the smack and artificial appeal of a beauty contestant’s pledge to render world peace, a testament to his business leadership skills, the whiles not seen since the rule of Richard Milhous Nixon.

“What about this lovely one?” Mrs. Bakerhorn asks. She points to the more affordable, four figure Standard Funeral Package, remiss in its exclusion of such amenities as those offered in the Deluxe Standard Funeral Package: durable, high gloss paint applied to the simulated wood casket, insured to retain its brilliant luster for a period of one year.

The sales proceeds. Jon basks in the prospect of smoking not just one cigarette, but possibly blazing through an entire carton of Premium King Cigarettes as afforded by the fruits of his sales accomplishments. He abstains for now, however, from celebrating a premature victory until his conquest is complete.

Sensing the urgency to appear even more holy, Jon kneels down on one knee, so close to Mrs. Bakerhorn he can smell the onion on her breath.

“Now, Mrs. Bakerhorn, I could always throw in a complimentary homily or an epitaph to dazzle the mourners on your day of glory for your transport to the great beyond.” If he could secure the combined sale of a Deluxe Standard Funeral Package and a contract for his religious services at the gravesite ceremony, Jon might be able to afford to smoke Premium King Extra Long Cigarettes for perpetuity. The very thought emboldens him. He’s consumed with capitalistic zeal. “What pageantry and pomp this will add to your final day of departure, your final resting state.”

Mrs. Bakerhorn peers at the six-figure price tag the Combined Super-Deluxe Funeral Package carries and gawks at Jon.

“Since you’re special to me, and to the Lord, of course, I’m about to make you a once in a lifetime offer.” (Hear the drum roll.) “This will only be available for the next fifteen minutes. If you purchase the Combined Super-Deluxe Funeral Package which includes my exclusive, religious-related services.” Mrs. Bakerhorn leans even closer to Jon’s face. Her eyes pop with anticipation. Jon pauses for a few seconds to heighten the dramatic effect, then continues in a somber evangelic tone,” I could burn some floral incense in the viewing parlor, maybe play some religious music by the Oak Ridge Boys, if you’ll just purchase the Combined Super-Deluxe Funeral Package AND secure me as the exclusive minister to conduct all religious affiliated activities.” The moisture of tears spills over his lids onto his cheeks. “What a union of cosmic celebration and spiritual showcasing on your day to meet the Lord that would be.”

Four hours later, Jon emerges from the squirrel filled trailer, with a Premium King cigarette in one hand and a contract in the other. A neon yellow squirrel falls from the wreath when he slams the trailer door shut, a presage he is certain of another triumph to come.

Firing up his celebratory cigarette, he knows the many years he’s spent selling funeral insurance entitle him to a few moments of smoking pleasure and recreational respite. He’ll return to The Rudy Sue Restaurant a better man, flush with joy and nicotine on his breath. He’ll then kick up his feet on the kitchen table and guzzle a twenty –ounce bottle of Schlitz, possibly two.

Rudy Sue, meanwhile, is festering at the restaurant, and cursing Jon for being so long. She busies herself with the demanding lunch rush crowd of six. In between serving the customers, she schemes and plots the menace she’ll administer to Jon for having to socialize and serve lunch. For now, her stoic posture of hostility is offset by the AM broadcast of the Oral Roberts’ Ministry. Rudy Sue employs this ruse to drop a scrim of piety and wholesomeness between she and the customers on days like this.

For the long drive home, Jon hums his favorite ditty. Being eighteen inches shorter and one hundred and sixty pounds lighter than Rudy Sue makes it difficult for Jon to assert himself as the proverbial man of the house. Although he can run much faster than she, he is ill-equipped to dodge the blows of her blistering invectives. But today, he’s a man of accomplishment; he’s the king of this car; he’s the sultan of sales; he’s the baron of all businessmen! Jon is afloat in the aftermath of his victory, but experience has taught him not to indulge in over-confidence as he returns to the restaurant to confront Rudy Sue. Jon often wonders if life would have turned out to be more favorable had the vo-tech classes in high school provided some instruction on polemics. Alas, he’ll never know.

But for today, the bills are paid and Jon tosses the empty carton of Premium King Extra Long cigarettes over his shoulder into the back seat of the car.

Lynne Agnew, winner, 2011 Sandra Gould-Ford Prize

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Artist Focus: Sheila Rodgers, Photographer

Back in July, 2011, Blast Furnace announced that it would begin to include a quarterly focus of artists/photographers as a result of readers' poll votes. Our first artist feature is Sheila Rodgers.

Sheila Rodgers is a photographer based in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. Her photography primarily focuses on botanical subjects and location portraiture. She's been creating photographs for over four decades, and in Spring 2011, received her Bachelor of Fine Arts (BFA) from Chatham University in Visual Arts: Photography Concentration.

The artist has published her photographs in Good Weed Bad Weed: Who's Who, What to Do, and Why Some Deserve a Second Chance (All You Need to Know About the Weeds in Your Yard) with author Nancy Gift, PhD,  which sold over 5,000 copies within its first year of being published (including sales in Canada).

Sheila has held photography exhibits at Chatham, < c > space: collective, and at the Arboretum at the State Botanical Garden, University of Kentucky in Lexington.

Blast Furnace recently caught up with the photographer and conducted the following interview via email. [Click on any of the photographic images below to enlarge them]

How did you become interested in photography, and who are your influences? Whose work do you admire?

I’ve been taking pictures since my childhood, I was interested initially because my father had a 35-millimeter black&white Kodak camera and his mother had a Kodak box camera before that. I was interested in the captured moments from their earlier lives, and I wanted to be able to do that as well. I had inexpensive instamatic cameras through my teens and did not get to explore shooting and developing my own 35mm B&W photos until my early college years when I first majored in Industrial Arts. I didn’t finish that degree, but went on many years later to pursue a Visual Arts degree with a concentration in Photography. So personally, my early influences were my father and grandmother, then professionally, Dr. Robert Cooley at Chatham [University], who really taught me all I know now about both B&W and digital photography. His work has always been a source of admiration for me as we both were interested in many same areas of subject matter. On the level of professional photographers, most of the work that I admire was produced by three famous West Coast photographers: Ansel Adams, Imogen Cunningham, and Edward Weston who formed Group f64.

Cirque du Soleil tents: f5.6, 1/2 sec. exposure, ISO-100, 26mm focal length, 6/4/11 in the Strip District, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania before dawn on my 56th birthday. I was meeting a friend to shoot some pre-dawn photos, and we came upon these festive tents with no activity around them, quite the opposite of what one thinks of when they see circus tents. - SR
Typically, what are your subjects of interest? Is there a specific subject you would like to pursue in your photos that you haven't yet?

Like the Group f64 photographers, I am drawn to nature photography primarily, both landscape and macro images. My portraiture work tends to be shot in natural settings as well to draw upon natural light. I am not a big fan of studio portraiture, as I find the equipment gets in the way of interacting comfortably with my subjects. I haven’t considered other subject matter for awhile, as I am enjoying what I am doing enough right now—there is so much to see in the natural world.

Imagine at Strawberry Fields: f5, 1/100 sec. exposure, ISO-200, 32mm focal length, 5/28/11, Central Park, New York City, New York. This was my first trip to New York and although it was a short stay, I was hoping to see as many varied sights as possible. This was serendipitous, as we took a walk through Central Park, and came across this homage to John Lennon. - SR
Talk about your experience in the darkroom.

I first learned some rudimentary skills in my late teens/early twenties but never really had the time then to get really skilled in the darkroom. Once I began working with Dr. Cooley, he gave us as much access to the darkroom as we wished, and we often worked in self-formed groups to support each other's developing skills. Being able to successfully develop B&W film takes a blend of exacting science and also the willingness to push the envelope to get more out of out images. Sometimes it was exhilarating to see what formed on the paper, and sometimes it was sheer frustration, but always a great learning experience. I do wish we had had more time to pursue our darkroom skills. Sadly, with Dr. Cooley’s passing, I no longer have access to the darkroom.

Discarded wing: f13, 1 sec. exposure, ISO-100, 55mm focal length, 8/10/10. I walked out on my front porch at 7 [o'clock] one morning and found this laying in the still air, just as it is positioned here. I quickly gathered my camera and tripod to record this, as I knew the scene would not last. When I returned a brief time later, I found this was true, the wing was gone, it had flown away! - SR
Do you have a favorite photograph by another artist? Do you have a favorite book on the topic of photography, or a favorite book of photographs that you recommend to others?

I have at least eight books on Imogen Cunningham’s photography; I love her work in particular. I go back to them periodically to study what she was able to capture in her plant photographs. I have also read Beaumont Newhall's The History of Photography thoroughly just to learn about all of the marvelous predecessors in the field. Compared to today’s digital photographers, many of them faced extraordinary obstacles in terms of bulky equipment, limited darkroom access, fragile glass negatives, corrosive chemicals, travel restrictions, etc., that we take for granted today.

Iris and dew: f5.6, 1/200 sec. exposure, ISO-400, 200mm focal length, 5/28/10. Another early morning shot, as the dew clung to the petals of this white iris in my front garden. The wide aperture kept my depth of field shallow and using a zoom lens enabled me to really hone in on the details of the flower's structure. - SR
What kind of camera(s) do you use? What is your "go-to" lens for most shots, and do you ever use filters?

My primary camera is a Nikon D40x which has served me well for five years so far. The standard 18-55mm kit lens is the one I use most, although I sometimes use a 55-200mm zoom lens for close-up plant shots. The only filter I use regularly is a polarizing filter for outdoor work. If I still had regular access to the darkroom, I would still like to use the older Nikon and Minolta 35mm cameras that I have.

Japanese maple raindrop: f5.3, 1/60 sec. exposure, ISO-200, 155mm focal length, 7/21/08. This was shot at dusk after an early evening summer shower, and like the Iris and dew image, I like these compositions that include rainwater recorded with a shallow depth of field and a zoom lens. They create miniature magnifications, which I find delightful. - SR
Do you prefer digital or roll film? For digital, what's your camera resolution setting? Where do you print your digital photos and on what kind of paper?

I would have to say I prefer digital over film; it just lends itself to more versatility. The instantaneous results allow me to make adjustments on the spot, and the quality of the images is astounding at times. My D40x resolution is 10.2 megapixels. Dr. Cooley taught us that the human eye cannot really discern the difference once you get over 6 megapixels, so it is certainly enough digital information from my point of view. I print both at home on a Canon photo printer from a Mac computer, and I also use commercial services from Costco for larger images, up to poster sizes. I have used both glossy and matte papers, depending on the subject matter and where I will be displaying my images.

Church at dawn: f4.8, 1/160 sec. exposure, ISO-200, 95mm focal length, 6/4/11 in the Strip District, Pittsburgh before dawn. On this same photo shoot, as the sun began to rise, the light began changing rapidly and I found this scene at my back from the circus tents setting. Both were great birthday presents to myself! - SR
What advice do you have for amateur photographers who want to improve?

The same thing that I was taught—shoot, shoot, shoot. Take your camera everywhere and shoot what appeals to you. Bracket your shots to get a range of light and shadows. For me, the best thing I have incorporated in my work is using a tripod and a remote release because I get the sharpest images that way, both with nature photography and portraiture. Nothing can save an out-of-focus image regardless of your aperture, speed and ISO settings.

See more of Sheila's work on the web at http://srodgersimages.weebly.com/

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Call for Submissions: Volume 2, Issue 1 - Winter

FOR PUBLICATION CONSIDERATION IN OUR FIFTH ISSUE (Volume 2, Issue 1) SLATED FOR APRIL 2012 RELEASE:

Please submit no more than three (3) of your BEST poems via SUBMISHMASH, the online submission manager, at http://blastfurnace.submishmash.com/submit, or, if you prefer to create an audio recording of yourself reciting your poetry, send ONLY ONE (1) .mp3/.wav file attachment of NOT MORE THAN 2 MINUTES/120 seconds in total duration.

The theme for Volume 2, Issue 1 is traditional form poetry. However, as always, we are happy to consider poems outside of this theme. Please indicate the form(s) of your poem(s) in your submission(s).

DEADLINEMarch 15, 2012

About Issue 4, and Year One Wrap Up

Blessings to you in 2012.

We are so pleased with the success of our first year online, and most grateful for the support and valued input provided by our submitters and readers, as well as the willingness of our interviewed poets to entertain the barrage of questions we send their way. We are excited about the plans and surprises Blast Furnace has in store over the next twelve months, including our first special edition of the journal later in January; photography and creations submitted by talented artists from Pittsburgh and elsewhere; and more poet interviews.

To close 2012, we feature Volume 1, Issue 4, chock full of ekphrastic poetry—which comments on other art forms (for instance, a painting, a song, a film, etc.)—and poems about other artists, in addition to pieces outside of the issue's theme.

Blast Furnace continues to be blown away by the caliber (and VOLUME!) of submissions we receive, including audio poetry. Do keep them coming!

- R. Clever, Editor/Publisher

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Blast Furnace Volume 1, Issue 4: Autumn 2011

Let the little poem

Take a scalpel to the story
but let the little poem flow
go back and check your duplications
she sat and sobbed,
or babbled
danced or pranced or meditated
what can be elucidated
but let the little poem go—

Take a scalpel to the story
but let the little poem dance
let it weave effects upon our hearts
let it chart our weakness, spot us swinging
open the page and start us singing
let the little poem speak—      (or prance)

The world’s sense isn’t in us
unless we stop to listen
                                     stop to breathe
what is it that we fear, my dear
let’s hold hands and sheathe our scalpels
tuck them in our belts
pause, to feel our feelings
let the little poem seethe—

And when the dance is done
the song is sung
the hunter home from the hill
we can read the story 'oer
discuss it, let it lull us, add some more—

Time to recite
put down the book
let the little poem spill.


Morgan le Fey and the Chapel Between the Worlds

I roll over; wake again,
enwrapped in my blankets, lying on the grass…
I look for my acolytes temple
gone of course, as is my palace.
How many years have passed this time?
When I last awoke, though Arthur slept on,
Avalon’s buildings were as solid
as when I laid him in the healing chamber—

That time, not long after he was wounded
in body, and I weary in spirit
I laid me down as well but woke soon
not so this time, my bones alone
cry a century of lying on the ground…
still, I spy our modest chapel standing yet
a portal between our two worlds
it seems not to decay.

Up, Morgan, stride to the chapel
daunting double doors made of oak
no longer bright as they were
when the first century after Christ turned.
No matter,
still studded with black brads
large as those in dear Arthur’s buckler
each door’s handle, a large iron hoop—

Tug on the handles, Morgan
open both doors; enter our chapel on this side,
Avalon, Blessed Isle of Apples,
this door leads straight to the sanctuary
you, that is I, step in behind the altar
you, that is we, raise the cup, the chalice
the Grail, the blood;
our eyes sweep the chapel but see only light.

We know that the knights who find this chapel
stand amazed, and readily ken its sway
they enter from the opposite side:
from Carlynton, Glastonbury
Exeter, Penzance—

they must breathe a prayer first,
enter, genuflect
and walk up the main aisle to face our Glory.

Christine Wolfe belongs to several poetry-connected groups in Pittsburgh, including the Western Pennsylvania Writing Project, Pittsburgh Poetry Society, and "Madwomen in the Attic" at Carlow University.



Nevermind
for Mary Ellen O’Driscoll

Is there anything worse than a sad boy’s ghost?
When I heard about your head blown out,
wondered: coke, fan, the hubris of despair?
I couldn’t join the mourners on the coast—
Seattle’s misery, like Starbucks, seemed to settle.
I couldn’t get a ticket for the wake,
and worse, just as you feared, Nirvana’s fame
made you suspect: another rock star dead, another
stupid corpse. But then I heard the words
without the noise—all praise the veejays
for Unplugged—and saw how I’d been wrong.
You weren’t Hendrix, Morrison, or Mama Cass.
The Lord of Geeks erupting in the stale air,
more like. You figured high school
the root of evil and that, when it comes
to names for sex, we should relax. Mock
fame and good repute; support loud chicks
in all things. But mostly, calling to a world
hello that didn’t care for boys like us
Hello hello hello hello hello hello hello
Didn’t know you, so never going to.
But wanted to say, before I also go,
What is heard in the music even now:
The song will end itself, so fuck the ghost.
Rave, dead boy, sing even
                                                      after you are lost.


Strip Mining, or, Negative Theology in Bisbee, AZ

The woman curses
at the door to the bookstore.

You fucking hypocrite.
Is she talking to her dog?

Goddamn these bullshit Zonies.
O, she speaks to Arizona!

This funky mining town’s
got a ten-buck merlot

a tasty veggie burger
and a sweet slice of rhubarb pie.

Slicker wonders how they got so low
in Copperland,

so many folk from Nueva York
in Queen of Copper land.

Like the Auld Dubliner
Pub in Tucson,

The Saloon in Bisbee
is more hallucination

than wicked brew.
At abandoned mines or

the Lavender Pit where
a mountain had been,

we hear Bisbee casting
doubt on every lapis ring.

To end at Bisbee undermines
the whole adventure.

                                            Like so:

When storm clouds gather on the peaks,
the clouds are not the katsinam,

the mountains are not the Ga’an
who deify Apache heroes.

Moisture-Drinking Maiden
Doesn’t drink the mist;

don’t invoke the water spout
by calling Quetzlcoatl

or confirm the local gods
with stolen chrism;

your keychain Kokopelli fails
the whitest shamanism.

Some shop-punk said
the Diné are in it for the money,

got jealous of Pueblo pottery,
started cranking out the bling

in the 1920s. This factory crap
in Bisbee, Arizona

is just a theft of a theft
on sale for thieves.

The mountains are not the Ga’an
the rain is not the katsinam

no water spout
nor Plumèd Serpent

plastic Jesus ain’t the Word
the plaster Virgin isn’t Wisdom

and in the chapel
at San Xavier del Bac

all the saints
fall silent.

Not the Ga’an
Not the katsinam

Not the Serpent
Not the Word

Not the Wisdom
that made the world.

In the pulse between
lightning and thunder,

the dark descends
between its names.

And for this reason
in Bisbee, Arizona—

queen of copper,
Empty Peak—

I made this song
in a monsoon season.

Anthony Lioi, PhD, of New Jersey, has previously placed poems in Watershed, Environmental Philosophy, The Dark Mountain Project, Assaracus, and Numinous. He is an Associate Professor of English and the Director of Writing and Public Speaking at the Juilliard School, New York.



The Effort of Still Life

This stare into a sunlit apple,
I long for nothing.
I am only hungry, dwelling
in the shadow of my memories,
my back remains rounded
fingers resting on thighs
but don’t mistake my stillness for relaxation.

No idle mind, nor movement consider calm
before violent winds, sharp rain,
foreboding anger
placed directly behind swells,
choppy lake water in my eyes.
The apple glistens with drops of faded rain,
and in spite of the terror thunder brings
my soul casts mute color,
but don’t mistake my stillness for catharsis.

No.
Don’t mistake my stillness,
a firm inertia, for courage.
Not a sit-in
of some higher purpose,
but further contemplation.
Still in prayer for a piece
that will quiet such anger,
distill the lightning clash;
and because I am still, I survive,
but don’t mistake my stillness for your victory.

There is greater judgment than broken skin
or a bruised apple
and I am still
until your death
allows me to rest.

Rebecca Suzanne Miller has been previously published in the anthology About Her: Stories of Grace, Grit, Grievance and Gratitude. She is deeply grateful to her mother, her sister, and her friend, Jody, for their encouragement and love.



Kitchen and Living Room, Both Dark

Of course I always think of him like this:
in my dining room, adjoined doorlessly
to both kitchen and living room, both dark
so the table was a womb of light.

In my dining room we adjoined doorlessly,
spoke in implications, but newly honestly
across the table, the womb of light,
the 3 a.m. air that dissolves pretense.

I spoke in implications, newly honest,undressing my own undressing,
3 a.m. air dissolving both pretense and armor—
what nudity it requires to discuss nudity.
to undress my own undressing,

unfurl the codes of body and glance, of reluctant
nudity. To discuss nudity
I need this warm light, this time of morning, this strange meal.
I unfurl my codes of body and glance reluctantly.

Exposure is always a calculated risk, even in
this warm light, this time of morning, this meal—
do I have reason to believe he will take me seriously?
Exposure is always a calculated risk, even with—

especially with friends, who expect to already know you,
fewer reasons to believe they will take you seriously
in your break from persona.
Especially with friends, who expect to already know you,

sex is dangerous, a negotiation, it is no more chances
to break from persona.
No matter how much I think I have learned my lesson,
sex is dangerous, a negotiation, loss of chances

to leave. Or say no. Or ask him to please put his shirt back on.
No matter how much I learn,
I have not learned to say what I mean at these times, but
we are here. Clothed. Saying tentatively yes.

Saying yes to unknotted speech, to eye contact,
to learning to say what we mean,
to lamplight and butter and salt.

          When I said I didn’t like hookups because I
          too often felt I was being conscripted
          into expectations I did not consent to, he said
          “You didn’t feel that way with me, did you?”
          I do not remember the look I gave him, but I remember
          the way it crumpled his face.

So we say yes to unknotted speech. We make eye contact.
We intentionally do not discuss the small things:
the lamplight, the butter, the salt,
our good friend sleeping in the other room.

We intentionally do not discuss the small things
and speak of the big in implication only, quietly
(our good friend is sleeping in the other room)
the reasons I did not invite him to my house, my city—

it’s too big. We speak in implication only
or not at all, never enough
I did not want him in my house, my city,
hated that he read invitation where there was none

at all. Never enough
assurances to be made when someone
reads invitation where there is none.
There is a trust that is hard to rebuild.

Too many assurances to be made,
too difficult to trust a man’s verbal contrition. Still
a trust begins to be rebuilt
in a pool of light and chest-ache and hindsight.

Difficult to trust a man’s contrition, still,
I always think of him like this:
in a pool of light and chest-ache and hindsight
between kitchen and living room, both dark.

Lauren Banka is a visual artist, poet, and organizer from Ann Arbor, Michigan, currently living in St. Louis, Missouri. She has performed and competed nationally, and has been published in the Lake River Review as well as in two self-published chapbooks. She believes in the fundamental goodness of human nature.



The Librarian
(Marcel Duchamp at the Bibliotèque Sainte-Geneviève)

wishbone       swan neck       violin              naked back
          willow branch                       broken glass     fierce ant        bridal veil

catalogued, call numbered, shelved according to an intricate system
of letters and numbers and symbols only the librarian can understand
no substitutes allowed
the stacks are closed when he is away

dog’s breath            baby hair               funeral wreath          white fox
                    fair game          gamalon                    broken tile               promise ring

archives hold a file for everyone who has lived                    he has named them all
every unborn child and all of those born
                                                        everybody, nobody, somebody, orphan
organize infinity, then let it go
          what survives spins out of control

he picks up the call cards one by one, groups them according to an atavistic dream

everything connects:            bow tie          baby buggy     lion’s head
          one hundred days       fur covered tea cup   and spoon               plate glass
                    giant wheel                    swan lights

Paris night as it comes on, at dusk the sky a specific shade of blue

a doll hangs in the window of a house beside a highway in the middle of winter

stars lost amidst the clouds

the sky filled with a million swallows, their wings darkening the air above Rome

wrought iron ring       holy relic     snakeskin     thumb tack
                     shoelace        broken glass   hairline       flim flam


Suture

The seamless quality is unmatched.
Cell by cell, nearly perfect.
The third eyelid’s extra protection.
Vision, a hawk’s, miles exposed to the unassisted eye.
The tiniest movement in the grass, epic.
Across my palms, the little cups that allow my companions and me to move swiftly
up        the trunk of a tree, to cling there, defy gravity.
The ears, conch-like, large curled shells of sound.
The eardrums, so finely attuned a whisper from a neighboring street reverberates.
The nose, keen.
Each scent a book of who and what has been where and when and how long.
Useless muscles now employed in a proper carriage, a confident lope.
A leap up the wall or a low tree limb, nothing.
Moreau had it wrong.
Devolution on that tiny island: animal into man.
Here, the surgeon knows better, fits skin to hide to fur.
I re-grow the bristly hair lost to centuries of apathy.
I begin to let go of the great gift of reason.
And justification, its darker twin.

William Reichard is the author of four collections of poetry; most recently "Sin Eater" and "This Brightness" both from Mid-List Press, and is the editor of the anthology American Tensions: Literature of Identity and the Search for Social Justice (New Village Press, 2011).



Can’t Hardly Wait 

She invites me to her room, it is what you would expect,
soft, feminine without being all pink hearts and flowers.
There’s a crucifix on the wall, over a cherry wood dresser,
Neruda on the nightstand bookmarked at Sonnet XXVII.
She is lightly perfumed, washes her skin with rosewater
she tells me. Her hair is loose, earlier it was tied back,
we were at a corner table, in the library where we first met.
I was thumbing through Basho looking for the perfect haiku,
stealing glances at her. She told me later, I looked lost in
thought, looked like a poet. There were accidental meetings
every week, small conversations, the hushhh of librarians.
She told me about growing up, finding answers in the most
unlikely places: at the bottom of a stream, on the branch
of an elm tree, on the dry scales of a garter snake. Outside
the air is still, the snow seems asleep and even the moon
hides in the quietest corner of the sky. All I want is to read
to her. Poems of love and loss, of tanned legs and the simple
beauty of her hands. How before her, nothing was my own.
How I ambled through days and weeks, wandered through
words without really reading them. Her eyes begin to close,
she falls into a dream, I promise to be there when she wakes.

Alex Stolis



Soul Man’s Blues

(for James Brown)

He could shake his way around the edge of
a dime and never lose the smile on his face.
                                                                              - Marc Eliot

I came out dead as can be.
Glad Aunt Minnie whacked me 'til I could see.
Said I came out dead as can be.
Aunt Minnie whacked me till I could see.

In those early years,
home was just a shack.
No plumbing, no electricity.
Not even flour to make a flapjack.

Learned to glide on my feet.
Spiffed up shoes,
snatched wallets,
picked cotton for meat.

One day Mama and Papa split.
Papa stepped in and out
of my world.
So I had me a fit.

At fifteen, I jimmied cars,
went to jail at sixteen.
Holed up, I moaned
’bout sleepin’ behind bars.

Bobby Byrd helped me break jail.
Set free, took to baseball
’til my leg let me down.
Felt like a porch with no rail.

My tongue tried gospel,
switched to rhythm n’ blues.
With “Please, Please, Please,”
I snagged ladies from pews.

Over the years, life became a brawl.
A car overturned my boy Teddy’s life.
Hits slowed down.
I battled my fourth wife.

Still I kept croonin’,
swoll up in 1986
with “Living in America.”
That song’s my baddest mix.

Gone now that shack of early days.
I cling to the soil.
Gone now that shack of early days.
I cling to the soil.
No shack here: I’m restin’, soakin’
up the sun’s rays.


If I Get Married Again  

I promise I'll wear shimmering gold lipstick,
dance a thousand jigs before dusk.
 
All my bells will flap their tongues when I
unscroll my life like a map for my love.
 
There’ll be no blues to stoke the fire.
No more will I hear those Bessie Smith moans.
 
The bridesmaids’ hair will blow like Spanish moss,
their hair ribbons fly like cranes.
 
Mist will airbrush night
followed by daybreak's auburn glint.
 
I'll sing, wave my glass, whirl across my lawn.
The clink of crystal around me will slit air.
 
I'll hear the chime of my clock,
catch a flight to Spain.
 
Grace Ocasio's poetry has appeared in literary journals including Rattle, Earth's Daughters, Haight Ashbury Literary Journal, and Court Green. She won the Sonia Sanchez and Amiri Baraka Prize in Poetry in 2011, was selected as a finalist for the Rash Award in Poetry in 2010, and was a scholarship recipient to the 2011 Napa Valley Writers' Conference.
 
 
 
Women Out of Love


She wants to donate her brain cells to build a better partner.
 Maybe a clone who would melt next to her in bed.
 After teaching a freshman class on Pascal's Wager,
she wonders: How many junkyards to transform into
 a city of love? Her older lover, a woman named Sonia Reale,
who she must meet in exacty two hours at The Mercury Lounge,
 has a habit of breaking all the wrong pipes, of setting off
a dangerous gas leak. Her worst fears: To live life as a series
 of silent explosions. To die as the burning girl with no faith.

Kyle Hemmings is the author of three chapbooks of poems: Avenue C (Scars Publications), Fuzzy Logic (Punkin Press), and Amsterdam & Other Broken Love Songs (Flutter Press). He's been published in Gold Wake Press, Thunderclap Press, Blue Fifth Review, Step Away, and The Other Room. Kyle blogs at http://upatberggasse19.blogspot.com/
 
 
 
Guidelines  


Poets should submit a batch of no more than five short poems or two long ones.
 
Why batch?
Why not one of these terms:
 
collection, (only if the bard is a lapidary, and his creations are gems)
compendium (a yawning assemblage of erudite blah, blah, blah)
sample, (fine for urine or stools)
specimen, (too close in nuance to sample)
store, (too commercial, and how many editors pay for poems?)
manuscript, (OK for those editors who do)
heap, (might be accurate for some submissions)
digest, (but if you're confronted with a heap, you might heave)
mass, (produces an inertial yawn)
ana, (only for confessionals, but they're all passe since Plath)
miscellany, (not for thematic editions)
anthology or compilation, (but if a poet reaches this level, then editors submit to the poet)
lot, (submissions are lotteries and not a lot succeed)?
 
How about bouquet:
a bouquet of five short-stem poetic wild flowers,
or two long-stem versified roses,
or one bashful sunflower?
 
 
Real Life Elocution

But offstage the actors speak like the rest of us
with ers, ahems, and that annoying Aya know.
When eloquence is truly spoken it's been rehearsed
or it's a one-in-a-million accidental bon mot.
Shakespeare probably rewrote and rewrote his rambling scripts,
honing bland dialogues into jeweled speech.
Yet even the Bard himself
must have belched, coughed, and broke wind,
when he paid his rent, fled the sheriff,
and ran that-a-way from his dear wife Anne Hathaway.
What a stuttering fool he must have been
before his audience with good queen Bess,
speaking offstage to her, unrehearsed,
without quill or parchment or immortal script.
For how many hours after being royally dismissed
did he mull over what rapier repartees he missed?

Richard Fein was a finalist in The 2004 New York Center for Book Arts Chapbook Competition. A chapbook of his poems was published by Parallel Press, University of Wisconsin, Madison. He has been published in Reed,Southern Review, Roanoke Review, Birmingham Poetry Review, Mississippi Review, Paris/atlantic, Canadian Dimension, Black Swan Review, Exquisite Corpse, Foliate Oak, Morpo Review, Ken*Again Oregon East, Southern Humanities Review, Morpo, Skyline, Touchstone, Windsor Review, Maverick, Parnassus Literary Review, Small Pond, Kansas Quarterly, Blue Unicorn, Exquisite Corpse, Terrain Aroostook Review, Compass Rose, Whiskey Island Review, Oregon East, Bad Penny Review and many others.



Leaf Struck

i was action, a curvet
of blaze and crawl,
frantic from wind’s
brute swooshing.
birds had nothing on me.
my cartwheels streaked.
clouds were my
feather-clad
uproarious blue-laced
lungs.

i catapulted wide
over mummified puzzles,
escaped the auspices
of blight and decay.
swirling back down
to percolate up,
i inhaled autumn’s
pinwheeling vogue.
pumpkin and cherry,
brandy and corn,
erupted in me.

space rolled amok
in the riot
of my gymnastics.
order turned asphalt.
moats of streetscape
thwarted my spin.
i scuttled up a rumple
of old linden tree, tip-toed
like an hilarious spider—to wind up where i

had first been hanging,
loose and vulnerable
on a peak.

Editor's Note: Chris Crittenden's poem, Inside Metal, was included in the Summer edition (Volume 1, Issue 3) of Blast Furnace. Both Leaf Struck and Inside Metal were submittedto the journal  simultaneously and accepted at the same time,albeit for two separate editions of Blast Furnace.



Arcimboldo’s Water Oil on limewood c. 1566

The man in the portrait, birthed from the sea,
presumed his existence a fait accompli
in spite of the howlerwind’s ominous song
and thunderbolts hurling through break of dawn.

But the sea level rose as the tempest rolled-in,
and soon the earth’s tears flowed up to his chin,
creating a stir. As swim bladders hummed
and tiny claws clicked amid pops and thumps,

a chatter of chirps joined burbles and yaps
while amphibians croaked and pincer-tips snapped.
Whisker-like barbels and tentacles twitched
as the torrent unleashed and floodwater drenched.

The man in the portrait, birthed from the sea,
reconsidered presumptions of fait accompli.
The arms of the octopus loosed their grip,
the eel and the lionfish started to slip.

Inspiring a mutinous seaside revolt,
the Dungeness crab decided to bolt.
And all in due time, yet before very long,
with the turn of the tide, man’s profile was gone.


Chagall's Poet with the Birds

The wistful poet implored, “Please sing to me
of windswept sapphire skies and phantom wings,
of gold-spun silk beneath the emerald trees,
and glowing fields of stained glass shimmerings,

glimmers of blade and leaf. In tapestries
that float above the village green, where magic
flute and troubadour weave reveries,
reveal young lovers cast upon a mystic

sea, whispering words of love. Paint me
a medley of dappled blooms in floral bouquets
where lyrics nest like childhood memories
of fragrant sweetgrass, warm-wind summer days.”

The painter knows the poet with his muse
awash in azure shades of luminous blues.

dl mattila resides in the Washington, D.C. metro area, where she is currently pursuing an MA in Writing at Johns Hopkins University.



Iran; A Note on Cartography

I.
Yours were the only footsteps I heard
          that morning;
                              you carried the fresh breads
for our breakfast—laid them, steaming,
          on the table.
                              Times we could have spent
at a table.

          A father who shares his morning
                    routine with his son. The ripe tomatoes reflect
                    red skin, cartographies,
                    to eat. Cucumbers, cold, whole, uncut,
          began to drip
          time, condensation.

II.
                              You placed a cut of honeycomb next to it all
                                        as if respecting the roots of the vegetables

                              by presenting to them an uncontaminated labor
                                        of nature, defined, horizontal, hexagonal, vertical, like

                              breakfast’s geometry, paired with walnuts
                                        to the side, some butter, rectangular

                              sliced Valbreso, held under running water
                                        to wash away the salt, and two glasses of hot tea.

III.
Actually it was dawn, you woke up alone;
I woke up to find you gone. Unfinished
doors, still a sign that you continue to build
a new house for your family in Iran, show me
instances where wood and stone provide
more than materials to build, they become
signifiers, flags that promise to spell
our name in the image of your house
so that when no one is there to welcome us
          we have still returned.

  

A Motivation for Yesterday

One green and black bike, unlocked, leaned
against the wall, waiting for me. I think
I rode it out through the front gate. I hid
the bike in the hallway of our fourteenth floor apartment.

Three days I rode it; three days it lived
again unseen, unclaimed. Then the first notice
appeared outside the lobby of my building.
In the hallway, with the bike sloped
against my mother’s wall, I confessed my crime
to her, my fingers lounged on its handle.

Our elevator never knew a night. Downstairs,
the distance between our building
and the other became a tableau of a woman
and a child who quietly returned a bike
across a four lane street in the middle of the dark.

My mother’s hands pulled the bicycle
up to where she sat in a tree
beside the boomerang-shaped luxury
apartment building that stood across from our own
high rise on Mailander Straße. It smelled like a few
hours before dawn. It’s hard to recall
twenty years ago. My friends and I usually climbed
those trees, their stronger branches only about three
feet away from the glassless windows. An easy jump
from tree to parking lot. I remember their black interiors,

vaguely lit, my mother’s hands—reaching
for the bike I roll up the tree’s trunk.
She carefully passes it over
into the darkness on the other side of the wall.

On Sepulveda Boulevard now, sitting beside my mother,
I can’t remember the other times I rode a bicycle.
I look at her hands, aged and spotted, their skin thin.
My mother puts her hand on mine, and wonders if I’m all right;
I look at the trees. I want to tell her that I’m all right.

  
Window Cleaning
After Aaron Douglas’s painting

The glass is not his cage. This man studies constructs
on the window’s other side. Layers of green,
brown, yellow, black, and pink color industry
outside, buildings whose shapes and tones
contradict labor—promise ease
on their bricked skin; order, form.
The transparent blinds,
partially opened, distort
pieces of this skyline. Conceived decades ago
he started to watch then toward today. A window
in a window of a window to a painted world. We watch
his watching—enter to look out. Our distortions
expose the real shape of industry:

One of his white towels drapes over the table
beside the window's sill. The towel he uses covers
his right shoulder—down his back—on a white shirt
shadowed with black folds and creases,
reminiscent of a painting; the towel rests there
while the eyes in his face dream
somewhere else. His left fist digs
into the sill’s wood—nothing stands in his way,
but the outside remains, somehow,
off limits to him.

Nima Kian was born in Tehran, Iran, but left the country during the early years of the Iran-Iraq War. He spent his childhood in Germany where he witnessed the fall of the Berlin Wall and the end of the Soviet Union, after which he emigrated to Los Angeles just in time for the L.A. Riots. A resident of L.A., Nima worked in the entertainment industry for nearly a decade before deciding to pursue graduate degrees. An MFA graduate of Saint Mary's College in California, he currently resides in Lincoln, Nebraska where he attends University of Nebraska-Lincoln as a PhD candidate with a specialization in poetry, a collateral field in Film Theory, and a certification in Nineteenth Century Studies, focusing on Iranian representation in the Western Literature of that century. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in Saint Mary’s Magazine, Black Lantern Publishing, Mary, Muse India, Quarterly Review of Film & Video, Mythic Delirium, Mascara Literary Review, and others.



We Took Them To Raise

the sweet basil
the lemon balm
the rosemary, the peas
we took Adam and made
a world from that bone
took the vetch and the chicory,
the leatherleaf
took even the darkness
took dogs from the roadside,
took half-fledged birds and the fawn
Bambied into the backyard
and said we had a green thumb,
a soft heart, a kind streak
and congratulated ourselves
for our good deeds


Snow White Reconsiders

At first I knew nothing about him, imagined
his wide shoulders, his eyes dark as cloves.
My hand tightened on doorknobs;
he could be in any room. On the dining

table, the plates waited for his thumbprint,
each single knife yearned toward his grip,

I made the seven beds: I swept,
A trace of aftershave seduced a napkin.

The old woman brought me a coffin.
I bit, climbed in, was caught and paned, a kiss
galloped towards me carrying salvation.

Impact. My lashes sprung, inaction
was out of the question. The apple had been irresistible
but what woman doesn’t later regret her appetite for fruit?

Wendy Taylor Carlisle lives in Texas and in Eureka Springs, Arkansas. She is the author of Discount Fireworks and Reading Berryman to the Dog, both from Jacaranda Press.



A Patch of Grass
(on the discovery, by scientific means, of an earlier painting under Van Gogh’s ‘A Patch of Grass’, July 2008)

Well, why leave it there? I say, let’s go the whole hog,
palimpsests and pentimento! That’s the stuff
for a dour age convinced of conspiracies, chuffed
at every lid lifted, boundless redaction: why stop with Van Gogh?

Cavaliers’ arms incorrectly foreshortened,
a peasant’s stoop from a ruminative smear,
the girl with the earring’s secretive leer
feasts, dejeuners and Last Suppers haunted

by ghostly visages, sketches and scribbles.
A synchrotron: there’s a fine Kolinsky sable
for the twenty-first century! Prised from its Qumran, every codex

is ransacked for rough drafts of the Bible,
the Pieta’s armpit searched for labels
the sublime scoured for the residue of Tip-Ex.

Isi Unikowski is a Canberran poet, whose day job is working for the Australian Government. Isi's poetry is currently circulating Canberra on its buses through an ACT Government program. The poet has been shortlisted for the 2011 Newcastle poetry prize, and was runner-up for the 2009 ACT Poem of the Year Prize.



Perhaps Why Pushkin Inspired an Opera by Tchaikovsky

Early on, my Gumby doll could twist
& turn into impossible positions

with his pony pal Pokey. Later,
I fiddled around with damp clay balls

& barrels of Play-doh until they
dried out in odd shapes the dog ate.

Finger painting, yes, I made a mess
again & again, until I fashioned

one tree, & mom’s peonies & irises
into some semblance of our family’s

backyard. Summers, the sandbox
kept me busy. What cities & cultures

I crafted into moist realities. Pee
held most split-level houses together

if the garden spigot was stuck or
it hadn’t rained enough to spade

my concept of sprouting suburbs.
Winters I painted by the numbers

in gummy oils, milky watercolors
in a book of Audubon’s bright birds

which daddy mocked me—caw, caw—
though I never dabbled in crows.

Even a young artist can see what she
has done, steps back & spits on it

to blend mistakes into proper shadows
or let the cool figurine in plaster

from Vacation Bible School melt
in the bathtub into a smoother pair

of praying hands without bubbles & warts.
Somebody, somewhere always knows how

to appraise a child’s gallery of art.
Kindergarten pieces à la Picasso find

a place in the museums of our heart.
But the most intricate, malleable toy,

the most ineffable creative substances,
are those memories hammered years later

into the music of language, a few lines,
sometimes one simple syllable, one note:

Did I sing well?
Have I plucked the E strings

on this silent page?
Can I still play with words?

Is this poetry?

Grief Visits via Internet Radio

On the day of merganser and goose migration
over a blue April lake, it finally happened:
I cried. A month later, I cried my yellow topaz tears.
when my brother James Karl materialized
out of Pandora.com and I, the Queen of Hearts,
caught him red-handed as our song,
the Ronstadt version, spun its digital voodoo.

I cried because you refused to see
the rainbow above you
and the end of it at your feet.
Let somebody love you? No way.
You ignored the orange warning lyrics.
Get down from your fences and open the gate?
Booze didn’t make the grass greener, cowboy.
Guns didn’t fire violets, dude.
Go ahead, swig.
Go ahead, ghost, shoot.

On the day of an April lake
where migrating waterfowl are safe from you—
the killer who killed himself—
I had my three-minute cry.
The music ended.
You’re dead, desperado. And me?
I’m changing channels.
 

The Instrument of Happily Ever After

In storage, steel strings go slack.
Larrivée groans, bored out of her frets
out of tune and tunes,
half-mad with disuse.
A guitar can get claustrophobic, too,
after four-plus months clamped
into a form-fitting case,
red crush of velvet,
black bonds of leather.
A wooden atrophy sets in.
That woman’s guest room may be safe,
if a note too cheery for Larrivée’s tastes,
An audience is not among its furnishings.
It’s not the little sister’s fault
she can’t play her dead bro’s chords,
would make his simplest ballad blush.
Larrivée misses her Moses.
Larrivée misses his fingers, his voice.
Larrivée mutely sighs.

But she’s the silent urn of his soul.
Therefore her keeper, the poet, promises:
Larrivée, one day you will be free
from the hard-shelled purgatory
of your muffled grief.
Larrivée, a prince named Matt McGee
will come for you and together you will
do the old songs, do Bob Dylan, do Stan Rogers,
do Moses Merrifield again and again and again.
An Irish lad from New York City
shall rescue you, the guitar named Larrivée,
legacy of a folk singer whose soul
goes on in the sound of music.

Award-winning poet, National Park Artist-in-Residence, and assistant editor and book reviewer at The Centrifugal Eye, Karla Linn Merrifield has had work published in dozens of journals and anthologies. She has six books to her credit, including Godwit: Poems of Canada, which received the 2009 Andrew Eiseman Writers Award for Poetry, and her new chapbook, The Urn, from Finishing Line Press. Forthcoming from Salmon Press is her full-length collection Athabaskan Fractal and Other Poems of the Far North, and The Ice Decides: Poems of Antarctica from Finishing Line. The Tchaikovsky opera inspired by Pushkin is The Queen of Spades. Read more about Kara Linn and sample her poems and photographs at http://karlalinn.blogspot.com



King Kong in the Big Apple

You were made for New York,
you big ape.
You were always too big to end up
wrestling alligators
at a Florida roadside.

You hate the bright lights.
At least your show lets out early.
It isn’t a Frank O’Hara stroll,
but you walk to the el, grab a train
(the A train for all I know).

You head for the Empire State Building.
The best view in town.
But you’re thinking Cary Grant, Deborah Kerr, an affair to remember.
Comes love, as the lady says,
nothing can be done.

You’re a star and your life is everybody’s business.
You’ll learn too late it’s best to stay away from public places.
So you’re a little ham-handed—you’re still a gent.
When you set her down on a ledge, Fay Wray should be scared to death,
but she reclines almost languidly.

Nobody stays on top forever—fame takes its toll.
Machine guns chatter as you swat at the biplanes,
clutch at your heart. Your fall is a big deal.
Even a New York cop can’t say,
“Move along, nothing to see here.”

Somewhere reporters rush to the phones.
Tomorrow you’ll be yesterday’s news.
She will never forget you.

Robert E. Wood teaches at Georgia Tech in Atlanta. His poetry has appeared recently in Poets and Artists, San Pedro River Review, Blue Fifth Review, and Prairie Schooner. His chapbook, Gorizia Notebook, was published by Finishing Line Press.



Conesus Lake, Midnight

We walk
the white dock
slowly,
as if the end
were an altar
and the waves
in their black robes
would rise up
to pronounce us
man and wife.

We hold hands,
our eyes pointed to the script of sky:
The Hunter shines his sword;
The Great Bear lumbers toward the moon,
a circle. Our feet go on, even though
one wrong step and the old lake,
with all its stories, would drink us.

At the altar, we sit
and shed our shoes
dip our toes into
cold navy blue
and our feet,
from the current,
become lopsided
pendulums.

I connect the lights from the sky
and the houses across the lake in cursive.
I make them say: Yes, I see you
holding hands, brushing feet.

We are still touching
our bare blind feet,
two substantial specks
under an endless sky,

and the dark is not so deep
and filled with hunger.

Sara Ries is a graduate of the MFA program in Poetry at Chatham University, where she received the Best Thesis in Poetry Award. Her first book, Come In, We’re Open, won the Stevens Poetry Manuscript Competition and was published in June by NFSPS Press.



Crackerman

He is lithe and long, like a reptile or power line,
downed by storms and whipping in the street
alive, dangerous,
crackling

one leg bent like a square propped on an amp
leather dipped and painted on boots
tipped in steel
arms a right angle, muscled under his thin frame:
shirtless and hairless.

throbbing crotch pulsing, more things hidden beneath tight leather skins,
behind him and
beneath the steel toes tapping
Crackerman thunders as the band races laps across the stage

under his toes, the amp and the stage:
the mosh pit,
flannels and Doc Martens a dirt devil of elbows, knees and bloody noses
fat lips and torn cutoffs like snakes in an angry nest
t-shirts muddied and whipping from crowdsurfers
whisking rattle tails of bodies sweat and rock back and forth
like sex under leather they rise and fall on chords and choruses

he sings through a bullhorn
that distorts and twists his voice
at his steel toes we gather, storm beneath lightening
cobras to their charmer
our voices hissing and spitting together in united disharmony
sing back to him
his words, only louder


Joey, baby

And if you're somewhere drunk and
Passed out on the floor…                                             
                                              - Concrete Blonde

          It's no wonder I married an alcoholic. The raw cliff of Johnette's voice, a razorblade breakfast washed down with whiskey and cigarettes, was my song of the siren. It beckoned me towards the treacherous rocks and choppy waters of co-dependent love. She sings growlingly romantic in the way of Bukowski. There are high notes of Henry Miller swinging his dick around Paris, oh, to love a man determined to self-destruct! There are low notes, too: the urgent need to be their salvation, arriving with bail bond or breaking down the doors of the bathrooms they have passed out in. My stalwart presence a second wife in the emergency room while his stomach is pumped; she wipes his lips that are stained with charcoal. My love, like charcoal: forced down his throat to bleed out the poisons.
          Our marriage processional is where he walks me down the aisles of the smoky bars where we get drunk together. My panties hang out, like a grotesque Mona Lisa, as I artlessly fall off the barstool the way I have learned from him. We fight outside under a streetlight whose glow is as dirty as our fingertips and clothing, before he screeches away to an impending DUI arrest, leaving me sobbing and skinned-kneed in the streets I am too shitfaced to recognize, much less home. Johnette has promised all this and more. She swore over echoing chords that these boozy pains will make me strong, paint an acid smile on my lips and twist me beautiful in the way of damaged women.
          One day we will divorce. That, too, is destined in the lyrics. My own fear takes me towards the raw nerves at my core, where gritty howls unleash his name. My pain is a baptismal font, spilling and redeeming like the fiery amber from a tipped over highball glass. Her promises are all delivered: the misery of love is more attractive to my black heart than slick promises of beauty and joy. I am the napkin soaking up spilled drinks, instead, a damage sponge: the foulness of truth over the beauty of lies. I choose the anarchy of the raging sea: sirens, those bitches, singing me to shipwreck.

Allie Marini is a 2001 alumna of New College of Florida, which means, she says, that she can explain deconstructionism, but cannot perform simple math. Her work has appeared in Goulash!, Pan’ Ku, New CollAge, Scratch, Penumbra, Crash, Shaking Like A Mountain, Multi-Culti Mixerations, A Daughter's Story Anthology, Eyrie, and Interrobang?!. She has lived all over Florida and Washington State, but calls Tallahassee home. Allie is a research writer/part-time hairdresser when she’s not playing with her make-believe friends. She is pursuing her MFA degree through Antioch University, and is curious to see what’s behind door #2.



ground #2

this is the land where my grandfather was born
in a silty memory—
his bones buried here too,
beneath the dirt away from the river
near to the place where the sun goes down
where purplish silks wrap tight the sky’s throat.

quiet days the sound’s only his blood
gurgling up cracks in the earth
for my sons to haul
with wide wooden buckets, splashing,
for dinner glasses.

   the iron in his blood tastes keen, sharp.
   the ground anchors it,
   our lips reddening.

Cameron R. Graber is a recent honors graduate of San Fransisco State University's English Literature program. She has sold several hand-made collections of her poems at independent bookstores in San Francisco.



Crossroads Chromatic
After Piet Mondrian, “Broadway Boogie Woogie”

What Dutch Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy
wrought with his yellow lines intersecting
at times squares of blue and red:

Mondrian mutes screeching taxis
so Cab can croon Minnie the Moocher,
tunes in the Andrews Sisters harmonizing
the sunny side of our youth at war,
lets us see neon lighting lindy hop
through hordes of tourists and showy windows.
Winchell and Runyon beckon us,
juicy gossip jumps from the grids,
we relive the best years of our lives.

Piet’s 50 square inches of oil takes Manhattan,
stretches time—back to jazz age glitz; ahead
to parades for heroes who conquer different spaces.

Lee Marc Stein is a retired marketing consultant living in East Setauket, Long Island. His poems have appeared in Miller's Pond Poetry, Still Crazy, Slow Trains Literary Journal, Message in a Bottle, The Write Room and Blue Lake Review. He is working on a chapbook of ekphrastic poetry. Lee leads workshops at Stony Brook University’s Lifelong Learning program on Modern Masters of the American Novel and on Bob Dylan’s life and music.



Beloved
“When a child gazes into his parents’ face, he is looking for a response that mirrors his own mind.”
                                                                                                                        - Mindsight, Daniel J. Siegel, M.D.

St. Francis of clay, of the earth, of terra cotta
stands shaded underneath pines
holds his bowl of seed for birds
offers hope for feathered love—winged
flights of fancy looping freely to open palms.
They chatter, cackle, coo and chirr annoyance
at our presence, owning, as they do, the open air.

It is vain to look into a mirror, study a loved face.
No preening or joyful adoration of presence—
avert eyes to focus on brushing teeth, combing hair…
but not too long—lest eyes rest on themselves—
a glimpse of self seeking self.

St. Francis brings me back to here. He does not
speak a word. He waits patiently for all comers.
What is trying to be known?
Only this—come, child, you are beloved.
There is no other way to be in the world.

Eyes dart elsewhere, anywhere but where they long
to gaze. Eyes that once traced another’s face for answers—
not seeing the coming smack to punctuate the lesson:
Do not look at me. Do not see who I am.
That familiar flush from disappointing others;
mirrored reveal of truth erased by shame.

Slight pulsed headache begins—
is the price of looking so dear?
St. Francis watches still and even though
I am not Catholic, nor never was,
his silent vigil is somehow reassuring.
My dear—you don’t need mirrors.
Look into Barbara and Alvaro’s eyes…
they don’t know you and yet see your heart.
Lay to rest that mirrored search.
He wrote it. He paints it:
The birds sing the world.

Julie Stuckey grew up in Pennsylvania, graduated from the University of Delaware in business and currently lives in Pawling, New York. Her poems have been published or are forthcoming online in Dead Mule, Prairie Wolf Press Review, Verdad, Verse Land, and Wilderness House Literary Review; in print journals Ardent, Into the Teeth of the Wind, Moonshot Magazine, Pinesong, Punkin House Press, Seven Hills Review, Verseweavers, and WestWard Quarterly; and in anthologies from Little Red Tree Publishing and From Under the Bridges of America (forthcoming). A number of her poems have been finalists or honorable mentions in various contests.
 
 
 
Café  

It was a horrible trip botched from the beginning
With A French family, a jealous husband, ex-friends these days
I need to make the best of things and get out of their home
Wandering around cobblestone streets for hours, met a young French couple
“Where can I eat, not touristy?”
“Cannibale Café on Rue Jean-Pierre Timbaud, very close.”
 
My stomach yelling at me, craving meat
The menu on the stone-wall, steak-frites, perfect
Stepping through the wooden archway, I expected a foreign tune
It is Tom Waits, American, lives right around the corner from me
Song about a stripper, kind of jazzy, mixed with barn-yard instruments
 
The stand up bass hits five notes, and at each the woman behind the bar wipes the counter, sets a napkin down for a drink or an espresso
“Bonjour, comment vas-tu?”
“Ah hello, parlez-vous anglais? I am sorry; I am another American who doesn’t speak French well.”
Those five bass notes beating away, my heart skips
 
With one smile from her, glimpse of hope, brunette, she smells like ice cream
“I will have the Steak-Frites”
No need to say medium-rare, around this part of the world it’s the only way it comes
Deep thought, “Is my Stool from the late 1920’s?” I light up a cigarette from Denmark
No ash trays around, looking down at my feet, mountains of cigarettes, I love this place
 
There was an order to the disorder, quite dark in here too
Her hair twirls in front of her right eye slightly, bobby pin on the left side
Small diamond piercing in her right nostril
No ring on her left hand
She sets my meal down with her left, “Bon Appétit”
 
A slight flirtation, five bass beats turn into twenty
I start to eat faster
She scratches her shoulder at odd times, she is nervous, as me?
I shouldn’t have left my journal on the bar
Probably will think I am “poseur” as Hemingway would say
 
I take my last bite; she slides across the counter, pirates grin
Music changed to some acoustic jingle, it’s Tom
Still American
Heavy French accent, “uhh, what are doing later tonight?”
“Absolutely no plans”
 
Short dialogue, writer, musician, chef
She is a part-time ballet teacher, Aminor chord, empty wine glass
Ate at the same place for five nights
Five nights, room above the café, queen bed, expensive sheets, Egyptian cotton?
Day-spring, windows drawn open to a small iron balcony, thin white curtains dance beside me
and the sweet smell of Vanilla floats through the room
Tom, I owe you one

"Café" is one of several works from an unfinished manuscript Michael Keel is currently refining with the working title Pieces of Wayfaring. Many of his free-write poems, he says, deal with everyday things and have a lot to do with traveling around the world, life experiences, glimpses of a certain day/night and so on. Michael currently freelances for a few magazines with articles covering food, wine and local businesses in Northern California. He is also an ex-head chef, managing a kitchen. Presently, he is working on two other books. His passions lie in writing, traveling, learning about different cultures and eating different foods from around the world. Learn more about Michael at http://www.pwc.mfbiz.com



Zap the Abecedarian
after Magritte's Magie Noire

All the other women are putting on the Ritz.
Bedazzled, you make your move toward me, slyly.

Caught naked, it's huis clos for me. I'm a blue hex.
Dream woman for you: half sky, half in the raw,

evocative foray into magie noire. I recall the leitmotif:
frayed bowler hat, brown pipe, though I hear you

garble words about a pipe not a pipe at all but
hoax. Like Eddie Carmel––acromegalic of the Arbus

image––I'm the giraffe of Brussels, the bean stalk for
Jack. I'm Eddie's vertical Brooklyn Bridge times cinq.

King of my kismet, creator of my silhouette, hurry up,
lead me to the Grande Place Dance Pavilion. Mambo

me, rock 'n' roll me, squeeze my rigid hands. Then
nurse me back to flesh with steins of Stella Artois, arm

over disarm. Demystify me: I'm a Marieke, not a Brel.
Pack up our histoire, René, enough of this sight trick.

Qu'importe your reputation––get off your high raj;
rescue me from these clouds. You're no da Vinci; I'm no wiki

sideshow like Eddie in Times Square. Dig into my flesh,
treat me to emotion, baby, though you swear I'm a real hag

under your spell. Unveil the disguise, René––expose my grief.
Virago or angel? Quelle différence if you let this triste

Walloon down? Now draw your excalibur & do the deed.
X-acto me from this canvas born out of rhetoric

you framed, monsieur l'artiste. Unzip the rib,
zap the abracadabra, return my blue flesh to sizzling plasma.

Judith Terzi's recent poetry books include The Road to Oxnard and Sharing Tabouli. Her poetry has received recognition and prizes from numerous journals in addition to nominations for Best of the Net and Web. Poems are forthcoming in Raintown Review and Spillway. For many years a high school French teacher, she also taught English at California State University, Los Angeles, and in Algiers, Algeria.



What I Meant to Say

Thank you for the moist oysters
and the berries in clotted cream.
Do not turn from me so quickly.

Sink your teeth into this: It is
always the forbidden fruit that sparkles
on the vine. I saw you with him in the carriage
on the circle. You are not the first.
He has savored plump apricots, tart apples,
persimmons and prickly pears.
Their juices still linger on his lips.
He will never be sated.

This time it’s different?

My dear, he’s a boy
who always trots home
to replenish his own orchard.

A five-time Pushcart nominee, Liz Dolan has won an established artist fellowship from the Delaware Division of the Arts, 2009. Her second poetry manuscript, A Secret of Long Life, which is seeking a publisher, was nominated for the Robert McGovern Prize. Her first poetry collection, They Abide, was recently published by March Street Press. The poem "What I Meant to Say" was a response to Ethel B. Leach's painting of the same name in the permanent collection at the Rehoboth Art League, Delaware.



Arms Grow Lovely & Strong 
(Trying to Raise Her Flag then Lower It)

At every rise she rolls & rumbles through

                                                  crisscrossing Americana’s landscape
                                                  on bikes & trains sometimes on the backs of trucks

where bundled within her patches whirling dreams her land

                                                  smells everywhere like roses

But learning is weightless & shapeless & nothing she can hold on to steady

wide & childish surprise waking confused & unfocused

                                                 Has she left off in the middle of this?

Days stare into the shifting face of paradox understanding where humility lives

                                                  is when she’s been certain the design was hers alone
                                                  to follow & fulfill & make visibly

striking & elaborate & proud with names & unknown corners now in the map of her
body she stretches across her country & weaves into her quilt a sad & missing history

                                                  but she’s going to admit the real mandate

is not to fulfill the futures she thought were hers but to stand still & brave in her own

                                                  living & thorngrowing predicament

She finds herself in everywhere something of a strewn nothing & the deliberation of mistakes becomes large in her patchwork as she wonders at what she’s woven well

                                                 still singing

 
Ring the bells that still can ring                    Forget your perfect offering
There is a crack in everything                      That’s how the light gets in

This poem is from a larger manuscript by Mary Hammerbeck, entitled billy americana’s Poesía de la Frontera, which incorporates lyrics and themes borrowed from Americana, country, and border songs.



If Only

She smiles into her wineglass.
The woman at the next table
holds a dinner date, cradles
a cell phone in her free hand,
while Tony Bennet croons about losing
his heart in San Francisco.
As if on cue the phone at the front desk
rings like someone asking
for a second chance, but the song
has moved on to cable cars
climbing to the stars. It’s only
a recording, but at least one customer,
not so hungry as he thought,
puts down knife and fork. If only
the song weren’t a recording,
if only the vending machine
down the hall sold something
we really need, hotel guests
far from home holding on
to our cell phones, holding on
until the next flight home.


The Professionals

Later the bassoonist told me he imagined darts
of disbelief being cast from the steely gray audience
when he flubbed a pianissimo note during Mahler’s Ninth.
But to me the movement sounded perfectly fine.
I’m no critic, but I admire the bravery of performance,
the way musical notes translate nervous energy.
And the connections between phrases, as an engineer,
I understand that, know the danger points in a system,
where a single undersized bolt can lead to collapse.
That’s why I wasn’t shocked when, during intermission,
a functionary wearing tie and tails snuck on stage
palming a roll of duct tape to make that temporary repair,
wrapping a faulty chair hinge to avoid unseating
the bassoonist for the remainder of the performance,
to keep the audience in rapt attention,
so only his notes would tumble to the floor.


Cornflowers
After the watercolor by Andrew Wyeth

Dressed for the past,
a woman rakes a farmyard
into October, separates
the living from the dead,
prepares the earth for what returns,
spring into summer.
Cornflowers in the foreground,
visibly blue, fade, while
the woman herself appears
ready to go to ground,
more water than pigment
or earthy tone,
vibration of who she was
in the visible spectrum.
I try to see her without
wristwatch synchronicity.
She says to me live
in the moment yes
but remember you were not
the first to discover
this place, earth’s predisposition
for flowers, for compost.

Dave Seter studied creative writing at Princeton University, where he earned his degree in civil engineering. Born in Chicago, he has lived on both coasts, and currently resides in Sonoma County, California. His first collection of poems, the chapbook entitled Night Duty, was published in 2010 by Main Street Rag Publishing Company.



Old Erie Canal
Manlius, New York. The towpath that skirts the Erie Canal. Thump of donkeys’ footfall replaced by the planing rush of automobiles jostling by. A dizzyingly warm day, early October. Smell of dry leaves thick in the air. The musky stench of the remaining underbrush so concentrated it is a perfume. Someone close at hand—scrape of leaves against the ground, flap of crows’ wings along the treeline opposite. The slow drag of the green and muddied canal an arc of divorce. One turtle sunning itself brazenly on a log in the middle of the channel, dark against the still, dappled water. One hawk circling over the autumn landscape, creasing its wings only when indolence threatens scuttle and crash. Its wingspan easily the equal of my height, and much more eloquent. One bee shimmering in its final hour of flight, none too sure of itself or of the day that sprung it from death this last and final time. One squirrel dashing out and then pausing beneath the red glove hung as memorial on the carved elm’s lowest branch. The glove a reindeer, a valentine. A single woodpecker hammering against the background, a new noise, and full. Green Lakes State Park a ripple in the sound. The fur of your coat. Your hands in my pockets, searching. The sun–drunk snake dropping off the ledge into the water. Your fear a scale, sloughed off in the crumbling dirt. Monarch coupled with a cricket on an overturned leaf, arching up over the yellow, the dun and bleached stain. Grass. A dragonfly where there should be none. You. A journey always already embraced, even here. And now. The emerald below us a lake. Further along, a mirror of snowfall, our anticipation. Sweat softening your arched eyebrows, slowing our twinned footfall. The canal. Then its loneliness.

Derek Pollard is co–author with Derek Henderson of the book Inconsequentia (BlazeVOX 2010). His poems, creative nonfiction, and reviews appear in American Book Review, Colorado Review, Court Green, Diagram III, H_ngm_n, Pleiades, and Six-Word Memoirs on Love & Heartbreak, among numerous other anthologies and journals. he is currently a contributing editor for Barrow Street, Inc., and is on faculty at Brookdale Community College, at Pratt Institute, and at the Downtown Writer’s Center in Syracuse, New York. Visit Derek on the web at http://www.twodereks.com/



Icarus on the Empire State Building

1. The Photo

High above New York City,
his feet twined around a cable
suspended from the Empire State,
Hine’s steelworker wears no safety belt
no helmet, nothing
between him and the street
but his muscled arms
all-American good looks
and casual—if posed—bravado.

It’s 1931.
Time to raise up the working man.
Who more spectacular?

2. Blue Collar

I didn’t know we were working class
only that my father
wore the blue uniform
of a guard on the MTA
only that he left the house
before anyone else got up
that he walked a mile
to the nearest trolley stop
that he got home earlier
than most fathers
smelling of cigars
and city sweat

that “union” was a sacred word
in our house
like communion
like the Virgin Mary
that a man who crossed picket lines
was a scab
that being a scab
was like wearing the mark of Cain
killing one’s brother
akin to taking another man’s job
taking the food off
his family’s table.

3. Journeyman

And my brothers were blessed
to be invited to join Local 7
the Ironworkers Union
to move up the ladder
from apprentice to journeyman
to full-fledged ironworker

that working on high steel
was like nothing else
the danger     the freedom
the skill     the sheer terror
of catching or firing rivets
ten twenty    thirty     stories
up, straddling a beam.

Nothing like that power.

4. My Father’s Number One Son.

Hero of World War II
special forces, Normandy: Jim
parachuting behind enemy lines
all the stories—if even half of them
were true

Hero of the high steel
the wound in his gut
worming its way into his soul.

Until then,
   he was high-steel man
   Hine’s Icarus incarnate.

5. One World Trade Center

Men in hard hats stride
across beams
like those acrobats
in Cirque du Soleil

   looking uptown
in a quick thirty seconds
towards the Empire State
lifting its slender probe
skywards.

Real ironworkers
   they’re a little wild,

Or a lot wild,
you know?

And they’re all hustlers,
     they’re all hard workers.

Phantoms of progress
risking their lives
unseen.

6. Hustler

It’s you
isn’t it, Jim?
says the woman
who has seen Hine’s photo
in a magazine.

Though he was in knee pants
in thirty-one
Jim agrees that yes,
that’s him

and displays the photo
in his office
at Boston Steel Erection.

And his daughters
and son brag
about their father
and his smarty-pants sister
keeps her mouth shut.

Myths, everyone knows
they’re not true.
Everyone knows
there’s some truth in them
even if the truth
begins in a lie.


The Daughters of Edward Darley Boit, 1882
John Singer Sargent

Painted with power, said Henry James of the girls’ white pinafores, yet how staid
the pinafores would seem minus the mysteries of the dark background.

Is that a mirror? A window? In the cool depths, Jane confronts us, and Florence
sick to the death of posing for Sargent as if they were mere blades of grass.

Head turned towards Jane, she leans against the Japanese vase, taller than she,
and ultimately stronger for enduring seven transatlantic crossings.

Poor Florence, poor Jane, sisters in misery, mentally and emotionally deranged
in later life. Spare them: unbraid that future.

Leaning with her back against the vase Florence can close her eyes and imagine
herself as the figurehead on a schooner. She has led them all around the horn of Africa,

through waves swelling high as a Parisian town house. When they sight another ship,
she takes it on and they race towards Shanghai harbor, pagodas dotting the hillsides.

If Florence must endure being painted, she will refuse to look at Mr. Sargent,
such a homely stick of a man: that awful bumpy nose. She’ll gaze at the sister she reviles

for smiling, hoping the painter will make her look pretty. Florence is all-scowl,
contemptuous of the childish pinafore she must wear as if she were baby Julia

clutching her dolly. Or Mary Louisa standing with her arms behind her back, her hair
combed into ringlets, a shadow riding along her left side and down her shoulder.

Quick: spot the four sisters in the here and now. With the lash of his brush,
Sargent renders them immortal, fresh as a summer field ripe with corn.


Where I Am the Girl in the Backyard Photo

A girl in a cotton dress
sits on a kitchen chair, posed by her sister
with her knees clamped, her ankles crossed
in the usual places, only a thin layer of dust
between her and eternity.

Moths have eaten the secret
behind her smile. What else she should leave
to the moths: how to sit, how to stand and wait.
Say she comes across her sister, ages hence,
slumped over in her wheelchair.
She has reached eighty-five and weighs one pound
for each of her years, wanting to leave this life
and wanting to stay. She can not hear, only feel.
One son hates her other son. She hides her chagrin.

Though family, we are little more than strangers.
Say I lean towards her and brush my lips
across her cheek. Say she smiles.
There are no more secrets
only the knowledge that one will pass
though the gate before the other.

Only that nothing will remain
but a wrinkled photo: a backyard,
a chair, a girl in a cotton dress.

Claire Keyes is the author of two poetry collections: The Question of Rapture and Rising and Falling. Her poems and reviews have appeared in Verse Wisconsin, Prairie Schooner and The Newport Review, among others. She lives in Marblehead, Massachusetts and is Professor Emerita at Salem State University in Massachusetts.



from a window seat @ 35,000 feet
after Jackson Pollock’s Number 13A: Arabesque

I.

drop/lets of every imagin/able color sp(l)attered onto the topography
a blend/ing of indiscernible and & pattern/less designs
—yet still open to shapes conjure/d up by the          (Mind:

II.

                   —A:                    1) loved-one’s face
                                              2) fuzzy stuffed animal
                                              3) broken heart—

III.

like paint on the wet canvas of an entranced  —&d a n ci n g—  Pollock

IV.



V.

Flight attendants, prepare for landing.

Eryk Wenziak is a drummer, photographer, and teaches management at the graduate level. His work has appeared or is forthcoming in elimae; Short, Fast, and Deadly; Thunderclap Press; Used Furniture Review; Otoliths; Negative Suck; Psychic Meatloaf; Dark Chaos; Guerilla Pamphlets; Deadlier Than Thou (anthology); Phantom Kangaroo; Pipe Dream; 52 250; Bending Light Into Verse. His cover art was recently chosen for a chapbook of poems honoring Donald Hall, entitled, Olives, Now and Then.



Arm of Eve
after Albrecht Dürer

Everything that matters there.
The hand, not offering but weighing
before the first bite—
gray-black wash, the tip of the brush, white gouache.
It was not evil. It does not take a genius
to see this. What’s brilliant is weighing
consequences in a hand.
These hands held
a brush,
an apple.
The world will never satisfy.

Jacob Oet lives in Solon, Ohio. His poetry and images appear in Palooka Journal, Straylight Magazine, Moonshot Magazine, Petrichor Machine, and OVS Magazine, among others. His awards include the 2011 Younkin-Rivera Poetry Prize and the 2011 Ohioana Robert Fox Award. Jacob's first chapbook, Metamorphosis, is forthcoming in 2012 from Kattywompus Press. Student by choice, he is never sure which language he speaks. He says you may spot him in a park, forest or beach, with planted feet, arms stretched up and shaking in a breeze. But don’t let him see you; he likes to sing to strangers. He takes photos of snow, and hates winter.
 
 
 
Snow White versus Ivory Snow

She rewrites her life story
the one that ends
in happilyeverafter
turns her page to describe
the small crack her prince made
in a laundry room mirror
thin white line
nearly invisible like his lie
steamed and dry-cleaned
faded memories, accusations
about his misplaced glasses,
lost bedroom slippers and
who is the fairest?
Snow White as wife or
another pink babe, soft toweled
displayed on the latest soap box
his fabric softening platform?

She launders daily for all his children
living in her shoe horn side split house
rewrites his life story
tipping his bathroom scale
with homemade baking
creating new fairytales
from gingerbread recipes
forget the cookie cutter man
and Grimm’s sugar house
characters Hansel and Gretel
sweet personalities consumed by
poisoned apple head witches
spitting out button mushrooms
at ivory snow now falling like
laundry detergent in rain barrel
the Emperor’s new threads unraveling
from Sleeping Beauty’s spindle
butter churned, brick-house pig
escaping, spinning tails, her dry wit
pink sponge curlers, rolling her hair, laughing,
splitting the ends, splitting with her husband
taking him to the cleaners

Debbie Okun Hill is a Canadian poet with over 190 poems published or pending publication in over 80 publications/websites, including Mobius and Binnacle in the United States, plus Vallum, The Windsor Review, Other Voices, and Quills Canadian Poetry Magazine in Canada. She is the recipient of several poetry awards; among them, the 2007 Ted Plantos Memorial Award. Another Trail of Comet Dust (Beret Days Press) is her second published chapbook.



Transplanting Rural Michigan

Sixteen steps up the dirt driveway
to her once-white house. Sixteen years
she’s been alive. Sixteen thumps in my chest
as we knock on her backdoor.
She’s due soon.

Next door, Gram’s Liquor Store fronts a home
with an aluminum pool in the unfenced backyard.
A rusted van hulks on the soggy patches of sod
that link these two lots of land,
as if a sunken ship had once floated there
where she, its treasured mermaid-child,
had ruled its fertile sea.

My new black pumps squish into wet grass.
The Lane Bryant blouse and blazer I bought for the occasion
clash against her hot pink stretch pants.
I stare at her protruding belly, her tight white t-shirt—
Who’s most uncomfortable this morning, I wonder?
I feel like a foreign body snatcher.

Across the street, row upon row of dark pin oak
extend their branches in our direction,
filtering sunlight to the marsh below.
I imagine a curly-haired boy swinging each one,
long brown limbs grown deft at forest life,
he’d know how far a branch could bend without snapping.

She and the trees tower over me.
My dwarfed heart—a circled stump awaiting
clearing amidst acres of green. Any other day,
I would strip off my nylons and rake my bare toes
through the cool mud, would pull my thick curls
into a messy bun, and drop, unashamed,
onto the peeling bench propped in the gravel.

Only here, I am the chosen one.
I’ve won her approval, the chance to be a mother
to her unborn son.

I tug at my hem as we pad through her doorway,
thinking of the family picture she spotted in us.
We can only guess at what she saw
in that Halloween themed Disneyland shot of us.
Brown and orange Mickey Mouse wreathes in the background,
Andrew’s long arms wrapped around my short and pudgy,
beige-sweatered frame, my chin-length curls pinned back.
photo by Lewis W. Hine
We were laughing.

She welcomes us, yawning a smile, early
morning crust in her eyes, bagel and cream cheese
in hand. Her dog barks, resounding our intrusion.
Does he sense my fear? My envy? My lust
for new life?

Her father, skin raw and stained,
greets us. Puff of smoke. The walls
are yellowed with tobacco.
We’re here for your grandson,
our presence announces,
but he doesn’t seem to mind.

We’ve come from Los Angeles
for a glimpse at your fireflies. We’ll bottle them
in a cheesecloth-covered pickling jar.

We’ll carry home their light. We’ll pack up your state,
your lakes, your green firs, your baby.

We’ll clear enough space in this cramped kitchen
to graft another kind of tree, careful
not to deforest anyone’s dreams.


Where Pumpkins Go

Not this one, its side bulges. That one’s knobbed
stem buckles too soon. Brown spots disturb these
bulbous cheeks. This one reminds me of the
scarfed and hatted old man hunched under the
morning bus stop on Lincoln. We told our
three-year-old to pick one he could carry
when he’d fixed his gaze on a slick auburn
forty-pounder squatting on a haystack.

Except for the sleeping newborn bundled
and twined across my chest—her button nose
poking through the knit blanket, I’d checked and
checked—we’d each settled on a pumpkin by
the time my paper-cup cider had cooled.

Our son beamed like Linus, who he’d
recently discovered. He lurched backward,
dragging the wagon he’d insisted
he was strong enough to pull through the dirt
parking lot, loaded with our three overpriced
winners. He’d wait to name his until after
he’d made it a face, he said. But I couldn’t
quite remember how to carve a pumpkin:

Would the seeds need to dry before salting
and baking? How long could a carved pumpkin
last in the open air before mold spores
began sprouting its gut? I wanted to rip
open last October’s carving set, unused

when that month bled bright red, its sonogram
shining clear and empty as the moon, my
stubborn fractured heart, or the backside
of a toothless grinning Jack-o-lantern.
We’d bought them three weeks early, so they sat
on the front porch like well-behaved children
day after day. Before we could carve them,
they were stolen. Our carving set, unused again.

Our son wished he’d given his a name even
without a face, then wondered if it went
where all once magical things go, like last
year’s Christmas tree or baby Juniper,
the girl who-might-have-been.

Jennifer Givhan is a Mexican-American poet who grew up in Imperial Valley, a small, border community in the Southern California desert. She earned my MA in English at CSUF, where she was the recipient of the Graduate Equity Fellowship. Her poems have appeared in Verdad, Dash, Caesura, Mom Writer's Literary Magazine, Third Wednesday, Cutthroat, Pinyon, Earth's Daughters, Rockhurst Review, Palabra, Prick of the Spindle, Mothering Magazine, Autumn Sky Poetry, Xenith, Write This, The Shine Journal, River Poets Journal, and are forthcoming in The Los Angeles Review, The Southwestern Review, and Poetry Quarterly. Jennifer was the 2010 recipient of the Emerging Voices Fellowship in Poetry through PEN Center USA and the November poet of the month at Moontide Press. She teaches composition and Chicana literature, and now lives in Albuquerque, New Mexico with her family.



Nine days before he died the crows came at dawn
(for Jack, painter)

out of his cornfield into mine.
Falling asleep our last conversation.
Someday I’ll teach you to plough the land by hand,

for all good things come from the Earth.
The best apple I ever had I ate while I stood
beneath its tree. He said it of apples, but I think it

when eating cantaloupe, the way the dust sits
in the rind no matter how long you rinse,
every mouthful musky with the aftertaste of the planet.

He closed his eyes, then said I love you.
—where’s the sound loud enough to overtake
his going—a last canvas stretched, waiting

in the farmhouse that Tuesday morning; not the straining
clamor of the circling crows trammeling me into the now:
I breathe, he doesn’t. Nor the rose

half-light of the sun battling the freezing rain. Nor
the extraterrestrial whir of crop-circles appearing,
laying flat the corn into mandalas, DNA shifted, no human

touch, over telluric lines, overnight; couldn’t someone,
anyone, do more. Put on a record. Say, Elvis. That sure
love. Or longing. One man,

one guitar. One woman
wearing a blue dress,
riding away from him on a bus.

Recent poetry by Tania Pryputniewicz appeared online at Autumn Sky, The Blood Orange Review, Connotation Press, and Linebreak. Her photo poem montage,“She Dressed in a Hurry, for Lady Di” (set to the music of Scriabin), was hosted by The Mom Egg in 2010; “Neferiti on the Astral” (set to Bartok) went up in April 2011 at Prairie Wolf Press. Poetry editor at The Fertile Source (www.fertilesource.com), she blogs at Feral Mom, Feral Writer (http://www.poetrymom.blogspot.com/). Tania lives in the Sonoma County redwoods with her husband and three children. She recently presented her montage work, facilitated and participated at A Room of Her Own Foundation’s 2011 women’s writing retreat at Ghost Ranch, New Mexico.



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Terry Wright teaches creative writing at the University of Central Arkansas. His latest chapbook is Graphs (Kairos Editions). Terry believes his sunrise can beat up yours.



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William Auten's work has appeared in failbetter, Hayden's Ferry Review, Literary Salt, Nimrod, Sycamore Review, and other publications. Work is forthcoming in Drunken Boat and Sugar House Review. His Web site is www.williamauten.com